Peach State Lifter / Pup Mellow @ The Gym

I can’t sleep unless I’m a 10.

Talking with my hot, sexy friends: 🥵

Talking about taking a trip together: 🥵🥵

Talking about what happens on such a trip: brb gonna go ride this for a few hours.

🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

We understand how much the instability of importing into the US is now. Hopefully the open court cases against the US Government will continue to find the unilateral imposition of tariffs by the executive branch to be unconstitutional.

They already came for poppers. We won’t let them take our lube.

I don’t need to hear any defenses of either position.

As a community facilitator in my own way, I’m going to do what I do, regardless.

It’s that while I want to participate, the drama queens make it so goddam hard to participate without feeling socially exhausted before I ever get to an event.

It’s so great that I was the best engineer on my team and got laid off because I am now too old and too expensive.

Arguing about it in a public forum makes you look like children. The kind of children who will kick the back of your seat on the red-eye from LA to New York.

I don’t talk about why I don’t do a lot of other events besides the few I attend regularly.

It’s all communication of expectations.

5/5

Those of us who are a certain age, we ought to know better. It’s our duty to be gracious to those who don’t know yet. Spell it out.

Those who aren’t there yet? There are reasons for requirements. Should requirements be spelled out more explicitly? Yes.

4/5

I don’t expect an event to change everything to accommodate my peculiar quirks, but from a broader perspective…

How does it look when you’re arguing about who cares what (dress standards, etc) in front of people who want to try and come, but just can’t deal with the cat fights?

Hmm?

3/5

It’s hard enough having anxiety issues and working through those to even try participating in a social space (yes, Virginia, play parties are social spaces, too).

Then pile on the arguments about whatever about said event (don’t care)…..to me this is like “These people don’t want me here.”

2/5

Aaand not less than 24 hours after I posted this, it’s like there’s people who are like

“Time for the weekly cat fight over event stuff in the Telegram chat. Let’s do it to make all the socially anxious people question whether to even try coming to an event.”

1/5

I finally was able to hold my #Grip144 in for a minute (literally 60 seconds).

It’s now my largest plug but I’m still a little embarrassed it wasn’t longer 🥺👉👈

I’ve been really sad and scared lately which is basically stress triggers.

I really could use a regular fist buddy who is gentle with me.

So I do want to find more communities that I could be a part of. Especially if I am either local to them or regularly travel near them.

It’s work, but I think it might be worthwhile.

Example: I’ve wanted to go to CAP, but I know that’s not my husband’s jam. So I’ve been putting it off every time since I still am dealing with the voice that says I’d just be in everyone’s way.

It’s not real, but it’s hard to emotionally square that circle.

CW: mind health and care.

I’ve had a very rough time so far trying to figure out the next part of my life. There’s a lot of things I want to do, but it would be hard to actually get to do those things.

I’m still just trying to ensure that I can process everything, and I still need the support.

I try to keep an eye out for cute onesies since I’ve been told that my butt looks super cute in diapers.

I wear 2XL in ODU and have a very similar thing with the seams on mine as well. I know mine is from a few years ago so maybe it’s just how they stitched the stretch fabric together.

Just giving another data point.

Myself in a onesie with 1980s style video game characters and 1980s and 1990s video game controllers.

This onesie still…..ahem….

Presses my buttons.

I know….its a horrible pun. But it means there’s a Megamax under there keeping me dry.

I’ve got to invest in a way to take better pictures.

Some of my musician friends saw that I e been having a really hard time finding a new job, and they got me an adorable emotional support dino.

He’s ready for the trip home.

I’m thinking about joining jff and filming/ making hypno videos and other content. Any interest leave a like and comment. Maybe I’ll finally make a video on how to make bottoming diapers. 😅

I can think of some things we could film. 😇

I’ve……done that for science before. 🤪

It’s doable but it isn’t a favorite thing to do 🙃

I watched this happen at my last job.

In the end, I, the person who knew the limitations of the chatbot, was the one laid off because “you didn’t use the chatbot enough”

Because I didn’t feel like outsourcing my brain, and did my own work (better than the bot), I was the one fired.

We are fucked.

Yes I’ve spoken to my therapist on multiple occasions about it but there are times that it still gets to me that I can’t do something social involving entertainment.

I guess I’m just neurodivergent and that’s that.

I can watch original content presented in a thoughtful way and without a bunch of extra people on camera.

I actually like watching kids shows in non-English languages since I can focus on learning the language in the show.

It makes me feel useless that I can’t do something simple. I can do lots of other things, like very complex problem solving. Ask me to watch a movie?

No. I can’t.

Watch a TV episode without commercials? I can get through it if it is simple enough. Add commercials? Forget it.

CW: Neurodivergence talk

I have to draw a line at watching movies. My husband loves movies; I will not watch them.

I can barely follow the plot of a sitcom episode. I can’t figure out who is who and why they are important.

I don’t actually get it.

I love how much it locks in and I can’t just accidentally push it out. 😈

It’s getting more comfortable each time I use it. So full and spreads out my lips.

I may have done this along with riding a Cetos 130. 👉👈

Mine was just stuffed. 🫠