Neo Pudgehog

Write out a post, erase it all, write it again, erase it again, ugh

I'm tired

POV you asked Sebo to count but she only knows how to count with her tits so no going past 2

I didn't get enough sleep and my antidepressant didn't work. Woke up terrified from a nightmare and thinking things I'd rather not say.

Good god xnx time to go to work and try to act awake and normal

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Valentines

I have to make a decision about attending ConFuzzled '26. I'll be absolutely gutted to miss it, but I really need to save money so I can build a safety net.

I'm tired of this constant anxiety and insecurity I have about myself. I'm so wrapped up in confusion and conflicted feelings. It's exhausting. My defensive walls have been up so long that I don't know if they'll ever come down again.

I don't know what to do.

Sorry for the ramble.

I split up my online presence behind 3 accounts. One vanilla furry, this one for fat stuff, and another for the hyper stuff. Why do I do this? Putting myself through different filters? I guess to not upset or scare people off?

A majority of them (and other furs I know online) either have a partner currently or have had one previously. Sometimes I feel out of place from those around me. Even my colleagues and people I know from uni mostly have partners now.

I've been more open about vanilla furry stuff in recent years. I feel so much more comfortable around furs than non-furs because I don't have to hide as much. I'm very fortunate to have some wonderful IRL furry friends and I feel "like myself" around them.

and other non-genitalia related stuff that exists only in fantasy. How does that make any sense? I'm too afraid to openly talk about this stuff because it's either taboo or just too weird to bring up.

And he's not the only one. My dad and even my sweet old landlady have tried to encourage me. But I can't tell them or explain the things I actually "like like".

I consider myself ace because I'm sex-repulsed, and yet somehow I have very obviously-sexual fetishes like the fat stuff, hyper breasts,

easily explain to the average person.
Is it too late? Am I too far gone? How can I expect anyone to develop feelings for me when I hide away behind a fursona in a ball of anxiety?

I know my barber meant well. He said he's just trying to encourage me because he thinks I have a lot of love to give.

I'm 35 now. I don't know what I want in life and feel too scared to do anything about it.

I'm just a weird guy who spends most of his time at his computer. My most-comfortable persona is a green anthropomorphic hedgehog that's sometimes obese. That's not """normal""" , nor is it something I can

It's left me feeling anxious and regretful.

I'm scared of ever hurting someone so I've always isolated myself. I've only had feelings for someone once in my whole life, and by the time I felt I could finally tell them, it was too late.

I've had the same barber cut my hair for 10 years, so he knows me pretty well (even some of the furry stuff). He's now the third person in my life asking why I don't have a partner, and was sad to hear that I've never had one due to how severely anxious I get about relationships.

Wall of text incoming. Sorry about this.

Mood is all over the place today. Trying to stay positive.

I absolutely adore this series 💚

Goopy nombreon!! 💚
Love this >w<

Digital art depicting Rivet from the Ratchet and Clank series drawn massively fat with her gut spilling out to the floor. On her left arm there's a glove-type device with a screen that reads "Time to eat!" A small robot is perched on her arm with a serving tray built into its body, holding a burger and fries. The text balloons read: Rivet: Ratchet... where exactly did you get this gadget from? It's got some weird aftermarket settings toggled on and I think they're *homf* ...getting a bit out of hand. Ratchet: Oh, Ms. Zurkon sold it to me! She said Angela traded it in a little while ago. She's apparently a BIG FAN of the Feastmaster Deluxe. She said it's amazing, save for some kinks? Or did she just say "for some kinks?" Kit: Oh, NOW you say it's "getting out of hand" Rivet: That's... great? I think? But it won't turn off. The food it makes is delicious, and the glove is pretty stylish and convenient, but *mmf!* I can't take it OFF... and it's been feeding me to bursting every day. *BUUUUURRRP* Ratchet: Didn't you say trying to find time for meals was annoying? I thought this would be a big help... Rivet: *BIG* is *huff... huff...* one way to describe the effect, y-yeah... Gadgetron helpdesk girl: We are sorry, Ms. Rivet, but Gadgetron no longer supports the Feastmaster Deluxe. The "USSBBW" setting you described does not match any official settings in our records either. Perhaps we could interest you in our new product, the Personal Feederator? Rivet: ugh... no... (in smaller text) maybe...

Patreon raffle art for @nahmbra.bsky.social!

Just goes to show that buying your gadgets secondhand might come with some unexpected surprises!

[ #fatfur | #furryart | #nsfw | #ratchetandclank | #rivet ]

My good friend is doing a lil 3d sculpt giveaway! Give 'em a look 💚

私が描くライチュウ大絶賛してくれるフォロワーさんいてそれが支えにもなってる
結構手癖強いと思うしライチュウ描く時もあんま資料見てないのよ…足の形を好きなように描いてたからそこは直したけどね()
ネットに載せる絵は資料を確認するものの耳の形が手癖で馴染んでしまってる

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Merry Christmas Everyone! 💚🎄🦔

A big warm tail blanket sounds wonderful 💚 Merry Christmas Luke!

This is wonderful 💚 the tail wrap really makes it wholesome <3

Bus stop ❄️

Thank you again for the lovely surprise 💚🦔

Happy Birthday Morg!! 🎂

I will ^^ thanks 💚
Cfz was a lot of fun!

I'm glad too! It's just gone 1am here, but it was worth staying up. This is such a surprise 💚