Please read, I am in immediate danger and don't know what to do. I am about to lose my housing and die due to kiwifarms and stalkers who permanently ruined, and now they are coming after my home address AGAIN and I am getting physical letters about planned attacks. (1/2)
🫂 i hope it does too, and i hope i can make it before everything gets too bad for me to finish it again. Im fighting for this chance so hard
I dont know what to do. It’s legitimately over.
As a human or actually learn whats going on, they don’t even answer my feelings or questions or acknowledge the context when I present it, night and day different. Why?
Reasonable I get painted as aggressive and my fear and torture and sick crying is not even actualized or treated as upsetting and disgusting for them to lash out at and reframe as hurting their feelings and thus more hard and it’s not a few people, its been continuous and no one stays to talk to me
Tone of voice i always had because suddbely everyone is behaving erratically different and staging it like I changed and turned on them when thats never been a thing. I just have to actually explain I am dying to people who say things defending that this is ok and because they frame themselves as
Actually happening because I dont know where people are getting their information anymore but its through very scary ideas only very violent people you all wanted to stop are coming up with so i dont understand if people just forgot this fast and i cant even have the same conversations in the same
Is over and i cant even see a community wanting to fight for or care about anything anymore.
I remembered such a different reality and I am just being tortured on my way out. If lashing out at me randomly is your first thought please find time to actually talk to me as a human and ask me what Is
I’m personally being mean to them when I never said anything to them, then create a false identity around me because people just see me having to defend myself through crying and frame it as anger and me being “mean” as proof to finish what my abusers started all because I am trying to state my life
All of this is a stage set up. My abusers (sexual predators) started lies about me, everyone regurgitated them even on my supporter side, then when I had to correct or defend myself from harassment, randomly identified with the side of the harassers to keep popping up to explain at me why they feel
Like a normal person AT LEAST in private and skips over actualizing the danger i’m in to be angry im terrified and sick and unwell because i realize my life is over over. I wont get a job or an easy way to keep housing at this rate because I stayed around people who used me to win internet fights
People just want to be right and im trying to speak something so unrelated to whatever cause is on your mind but its not related to my situation. I dont even Do Public confrontations bc im not this unhinged but everyone has been publicly @ ing me instead of just talking to me
No one ever cared and still make it about their personal feelings.
This is not how I treat people. I won’t speak further to anyone who hands me behavior like this. My life is invisible to these conversations because
Partners and you are all able to support and love one another. Meanwhile im going to die and you just want to pick a fighr aith me because youre mad i didnt die 3 years ago bc you were angry you “mourned me for no reason”
Actually fuck you i did need support then before i was accessible and
you framed that as why you reached out to me, then coldly went back to ghosting me and never even gave me a chance to speak and only found time to apparently hold a grudge.
I dont know what goes on in your mind but i dont treat people this way so i dont need a friend like this. You have like 3
Sure i’m safe and if i’m ok, you immediately don’t follow up or ask, infodump to me in huge messages about how much you love your partners and how good you have it (which im happy for you btw) but then promptly never ask or learn about where i am or if im even safe even though
Year ago grudge i didnt know you were apparently still holding bc i already apologized for literally not being online bc I was being targeted and my health was legitimately horrific and I was in the HOSPITAL and lost my pigeon’s life, you turn around and say you want to talk to me again to make
Stuck your neck out for me? I thought you were a friend but You publicly harassed me multiple times then pulled a “pwease no steppy” because You were made I go awol in serious situations bc I had to stabilize my life, and even after I forgave you for actually sending me a harassing message over a 3
Thabk you so much im crying right now so it means a lot to read
Are dying by extension of every safety lifeline being forcibly ripped from you and no one even feels anything but anger they have to be aware of it. Welcome to hell. When did you become this character? When did everyone collectively adopt siding with sexual predators and finishing their work?
Notice how youre treating not just me but each other rby proxy. If youre ever in my situation i hope you feel the cold ruthless violence of someone telling you stop bitching or you ruin the integrity of your art when people are dying around you and you
Posts they saw that are about wanting people to literally give a shit about human rights violations and abuse right in front of them. My sister dying didnt even make people care, sorry im apparently bitter that i will never live to know what existence was even for because you all cant even
Bullshit “sour the integrity of my art”. loving one another and calling out abuse was what my art was exclusively about, and i always spoke this way and its what made people line up before some weird mob began changing the story to pretend it was about them and they were “victims” to my random
Society lied to us about how we were supposed to live to have a stable life.
I dont know what else to say. How many times in how many manners do i have to state it until it clicks in one person’s head. Please hear my actual torture this isn’t an argument or discussion this is a dying person who cant even get anyone to stop changing the goalposts after this entire
I am just going to straight up die because i have nothing left, not even a friend, to acknowledge my situation. and if I say that it feels like the world is colder i get told im shitting on my followers then strangers come out and claim themselves as the people in my posts and regurgitate this again
In this situation at all. What happened to everyone? I cant make sense of it. I am such a kind person to those who are kind to me but i dont get kind messages often i get cold, calculated attacks that frame themselves as reasonable and me having to explain this over and over while im realizing
My life to be here at all. Ive had everything ripped from me and then i get beaten down for having to actually conceptualize im unable to save myself because i was kicked out of everything overnight out of nowhere off of nothing except suddenly being targeted by people wrapping anger at me for being
Make 3rd part extensions to more fairly distribute people’s feeds or fight back and my rally cry FOR ACTION gets framed as whatever you are shitting on me with right now.
This is so grotesque I don’t even have a way to cope with no one even seeing my humanity or treating me like they even wanted
Talk about the algorithm i get abused further because on x everyone decided suddenly they are the algorithm in the post and i’m being mean to them for saying they are enabling it to destroy lives and even tried to attenpt the beginning of offering ideas and solutions like why don’t we
