Still trying to dig myself out of this mental pit. Keep making it a few steps out but then soon falling right back down to the bottom. Most days I feel like just deleting my accounts and vanishing entirely but I guess I’m still here for now. Someday hopefully things will be better.
I miss my locked AD. I don’t like airing my problems publicly but at the same time I hate dumping them on one person. Having a small group I trusted that I could just indirectly vent to was a good compromise. Without it, kind of feels like I have no outlet anymore and I can feel it building up…
phox's hiding place
Based on my experiences with hanging with other cats, this is definitely normally cat behavior -w-;;; 💜
just cats hanging out :3
ft. @nikelcat.bsky.social
paws.press/@pinball/114...
It is my birthday, so everyone has to be extra nice and/or mean to me today uwu
oooooooo boy there are unreads from back in January, this might take a while |'D
I think I am severely overthinking my anxiety about signing into messengers again so I guess I'll just rip the bandaid off and go for it x_x
Apologies if I leave you unread or read without replying ;-;
Fun fact: while making the app mockup, I actually spent some time trying to come up with accurate nutrition facts for a micro
I think the calories are too low, but it felt appropriate to be vastly undercounting the calories you need to log, so I left it |3
A grey cat leans back in a computer chair, propping his paws on the table. His potbelly has little bulges in it as he picks his teeth, looking at his phone, saying "Damn micros...need to start eating less of em... or maybe just smaller ones." And insert shows his phone screen, where there's a diet app tracking his calories from the micros he's eaten.
Its so hard to resist a good snack! ... or twenty...
Fortunately, Nikel's got a handy app to help them cut some calories here and there...
Shaded Commission for Nikel!
#nommzart
I think I will be back soon. Been making good progress mentally for a bit now.
...kind of terrified to open telegram and see what I have missed but one step at a time I guess |3
Just checking in. I know there’s been people trying to reach out but I am just not up for talking. I am mentally stuck in a deep, deep rut this time and I don’t know how to get out.
I’m still here, though lately I seem to spend most of my time wishing I wasn’t. Hope to see you all again soon
The thought just clicked with me that maybe being mega-depressed for the last month+ and also having started new medication a month+ ago miiiight have something to do with each other
My obliviousness is literally going to kill me lmao
a Hot Fox brand diesel fuel tank warmer for semi trucks
a google search for "hot fox" featuring several pictures of Nick Wilde, an anthro vixen, and somehow macro paw art from xtreme7 right at the top of the page
What I meant to search for at work
vs
what I actually received when I googled "hot fox" without thinking
I hit the back button VERY QUICKLY and I don't think anyone noticed me immediately blushing 💀
Big footpaw with purple fur and dark grey pads/claws pressed against the ground. My sona Spotter (smol otter) is between two of the toes and looking shocked
When you avoid the stomp and wind up inside the toe gap...
#spottartt #macrofur
More nice shots
Squishing the micro at the party for fun~ w/ @nikelcat.bsky.social
Shriveling into dust at the realization that my Steam account turns 18 tomorrow
Finally we can be kinky together
See a butt, post a butt 🍑
He did hesitate for a second, I could hear the gears grinding in his head |3
Fun Nikel lore: for quite a while after changing names, I couldn’t decide what the proper pronunciation should be
So I just listened how others did it naturally for a while, and eventually decided on the official version when I heard Jerma say it |3
Happy birthday good kitty :3
The only bad thing about the exodus from twitter is that my locked AD became a ghost town too :(
Kinda miss having a more private intimate space
This rat is a menace...
help!
#spottartt
but it’s so much harder sober ;-;
it’s not a good night unless I feel terribly hungover and embarrassed in the morning |3
One of the nice unexpected side-effects of starting GLP-1 shots has been that my desire to drink alcohol has basically completely vanished, I’ve been totally sober for weeks
but how do I do karaoke now……
Few things are more of a boner-kill than updating my kinks on f-list and getting the clinical descriptions of horrifying things I forgot existed |3
They really are such selfless "volunteers" |3c
Forgot about “Only Post” feed where it shows only posts of people you follow and none of the reposts.
bsky.app/profile/did:...
Nikel going down on Q’s dick, whose balls are clearly stuffed with dozens of micros
[cw: implied cock vore]
Just a nice, quick blowjob between friends :3
…well, a few dozen friends technically. They don’t count though, they won’t be around for much longer~
Hot wolf and art is by @qwalf.bsky.social 💜
