Jade

playing like a dragon and it is a bit surreal. the mall where I had my first job is an escape room.

at some point the paranoia and empathy article will come out, maybe. because it is at that point and it is… traumatic even as a bystander.

watching the dynamics of my book play out in the worst possible way on an academic listserv for over 24 hours is horrific.

the big change seems to be that the biosimilar still has the ingredient that makes the medication extremely painful to inject which is making me super mad. And the inclusion of plastic thing over the entire glass syringe, so about 3x as much waste. this sucks.

they are moving me to a biosimilar but it uses the same protein so I am hoping it is a smooth transition.

(and even when it doesn't lash out in all directions, there is a fear that it might)

the other side is the loss of the original perpetrator in a world of denial of gravity (not the event). It means that everything then becomes a threat of the next wave and so the violence lashes out in all directions maybe? I'm spitballing? is that what this is called?

that is exactly it. the goal is to erase the ability to speak up about what happened to Them. As long as there is someone left who can remind people it can't be real, because they lived. and then we have to contend with a diminished population not having a loud enough voice of memory/language loss.

I think my commitment to the concept of bare life/homo sacer is showing though.

maybe. I think the part that catches me is it is false denial because there is a celebration of the people who deserve it being killed, especially en masse. So maybe I am just reacting to the word denial because it feels more like minimizing the importantce and/or a denial of the humanity of others.

I'm not sure that I think there is a denial as denial. I think there is a denial in the thing being the thing because manifest destiny? so even if it is, it's all G-ds plan? I feel the same way about the idea of nuclear annihilation being okay because armageddon & rapture etc. it's all the Big Plan.

I am very happy with the decision I made and am feeling supported and seen in a way that I haven't for a long while. I hope that your courses are fantastic this semester even with the catalog mess <3

I've requested a vacation day to play like a dragon... because self-care is important and I am planning on focusing on mascot yakuza animal crossing.

booooooo! I wish it were more together.

lol. the part of me that loves tie-dye is having a ball.

Zanzibar pattern by Kieran Foley Zanzibar is also available as part of the knit/lab Stacked Stitches volume 1 eBook.

ravelry <3 though I’ve changed the color scheme because I am using stash yarns: www.ravelry.com/patterns/lib...

a swirly knitted fabric bit in red, yellow, pink, and white with purple swirls how the heck do i describe this?

currently knitting a weird thing until the next like a dragon game comes out. I don’t know how to describe it but it will be my ugly scarf. 🧶

void screams.

Knitting wisdom 🙃🧶

other things: listening to the music I want to listen to at the volume I want to. control over the lights. television/exercise at lunch and a shower. lunch isn't predetermined because I have my food. there is a dog. my own private toilet. no sick people.

Today, because of the weather, I am having my first work from home day in my new role. Which means i set up my work from home space and now I am sad I am not hybrid because today has been very convenient and I like my wfh setup more than my office setup. For starters, the temperature is comfortable.

I made it through all my meetings without falling asleep.

I desperately need today to be over already.

(I woke up at 1:30AM)

I've not been able to bring myself to knit anything since completing the scarf so I think I may make a tiny shawl with the same lacey pattern...

I think for #1 we need to be able to allow for our own weakness? the endless demand for strength, pushing, etc makes that something we cannot acknowledge. It's the reason I am so angry at the shift to talking about traumatic growth. We shouldn't have to be traumatized to realize it's too much/grow.

it really is, which is why i tis making me laugh/smile. It was fun to make and it is fun to play with. and it just looks fun.

I am not a dainty lace fan but am enamored with the idea of lace so I am sort of in love with it. I can't wait to block it tonight when I get home.

Hand knit circle lace scarf in an orange to purple gradient.

Well. I fell in love with the thing I was knitting so my lacey scarf that makes me laugh is done many weeks ahead of schedule. Just need to bind off, clean up, and block it. 🧶

How Philosopher Paul Virilio (1932–2018) Spoke to an Age of Acceleration and Total War Frieze

Thinking a lot about Paul Virilio lately. How right he was, unfortunately. www.frieze.com/article/how-...

My eyes have been bad again for the past few weeks and I am over it.