Brisa

I bought flowers for someone for the first time yesterday (my friend was in a play), and why are flowers so expensive? Like, on one hand, I get it. They totally should be. And at the same time, why are they so expensive! (I could've chosen something simpler, sure, but I wanted something pretty.)

Ugh I had so many cool ideas about what my day would look like and now I can't even get dressed. How am I supposed to be a person today?

Every time I hear the news in this country, I wonder to myself if it's time to leave. I'm so bad at change. But everything is changing, whether I like it or not. Or staying the same for the worse, whether I like or not.

Weird time in this country's history for me to be slowly but surely putting my life together

A party that actually wanted to mobilize young and disillusioned voters would be studying Zohran Mamdani’s campaign like the Bible

I know I'm dont need to create with an audience in mind, but I also dont want to never stay at that place where an audience never sees anything i create

i keep thinking this is such a weird week, that I have such a weird amount of energy, and then I remember that this has happened for the last two years as well — that I had a surprising amount of energy and took huge strides in my personal life shortly after my birthday. birthday magic is REAL

notes from my inner monologue:

i can't wait to tell my therapist about this.

curious what my therapist will have to say about that.

well at least my therapist will be proud of how i handled this.

should i send this meme to my therapist? or should I just wait to bring it up in session?

I love migration season. Birds are so cool! And learning about them is so fun! And most of the time, I only get to hear the same ones in my backyard, but during migration season, there are so many different travelers passing by. Nature and this planet are actually really cool, if we pay attention.

I just want to live my little life (without fear of what the government will do next)

only when I forget where I live and the current political climate. but books help me cope for sure!

Oh i think most books I read would cause that reaction from them

And of course we're hearing about it from another country

i hope it doesn't negatively impact a brand when i block their ads because it's been a year since my rabbit passed away and i was still getting ads for a subscription service i used in relation to him. i came across the block ads button when i was looking for something else, and i just had to do it

i love posting on here because for now, it really does feel like shouting into the void, but also some of my favorite internet people (aka the people that have only ever existed for me digitally but I still deeply love) are here

I know it became SUCH a meme, but we really do exist in the context, and I think about it all the time. Not that phrase so much. But I'm always putting myself in the context of everything and everyone that came before me. And then I think about the phrase and the meme and laugh and repeat the cycle

me to my therapist: i feel so guilty for being in therapy. and also, what a weird time to be in therapy. and like, wow, therapists are so valuable, and i just want everyone to have access to them

using my phone both for fun and for work causes my screen time to be horrendous. and, it makes it that much more difficult to set boundaries with my phone. like, i'm aways making adjustments, and i know it's a process, but sometimes i run out of screen time before i've done work stuff, for example

Sometimes I read stuff I've written and I'm like, wow, maybe I do have soooome talent

Things are moving quickly, but it looks like these Sen's especially need calls from *constituents* to vote NO on cloture:

Angus King (ME)
Amy Klobuchar (MN)
Jacky Rosen (NV)
Brian Schatz (HI)
Maggie Hassan (NH)
Jeanne Shaheen (NH)
Gary Peters (MI)

Capitol switchboard is 202-224-3121.

Super weird to interact with people that aren't stressed about the state of the world for the same reasons I am?? What is one to do with that?

What a bizarre time to continue going to therapy. Working on myself feels both less appealing than ever and more important than I could've previously imagined

I'm not even watching this season (or the past few) and SAME

Do you remember that time Pence tried to see Hamilton and the cast called him out.

Or when McConnell was chased out of a resraurant and not allowed a peaceful meal.

Or when Cruz abandoned Texas during the deep freeze and we shamed him into going home.

That.

Do that.

I think it might be time to dye my hair purple or red again. Just... feeling that urge

I was just supposed to talk about books, and i did know those were political, but instead I'm begging people to do what they can to resist... this *waves vaguely at everything*

I'm so tired of people saying "oh but I know that person doesn't care." Okay, then be annoying for the hell of it. Call anyway. It's a two-minute commitment to call. And then they'll have to get a summary of all the people that called and why. So call anyway!!!

YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO CARE!!!! YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO FEEL!!!! FEEL FEEL FEEL!! OPEN YOUR HEART!! BE VULNERABLE!! BE SOFT!! IT'S OKAY TO CARE!!! TO LOVE, TO HURT, AND CRY!! FOR THE LOVE OF THE WORLD, CARE. FEEL. LOVE. BE A MESS OF LOVE AND FEELINGS!!! WE NEED OPEN HEARTS AND KIND EYES AND BEAMING SOULS!!

the vibes have been off all week, but maybe it's because the government is wack as well