I’m doing my best to attempt to pack for the first time at work today, and my god is this stressful for me 😂🥲
Every second I’m not sitting behind a desk I’m internally like DON’T LOOK AT MY PANTS DON’T DON’T
I cannot yet tell if it is worth it
The problem is that I really want people to give them more of a listen too though! I like the music and talking about it a lot!!
And the gay things are very much "in this essay I will". Example to follow:
Yes! And I'm working on that presentation rn. That's what's stirring up queen fandom vibes. I keep getting caught up in ✨iconic clips finding time✨
I almost want to do a whole presentation that's just "gay things Freddie did" but I think queen intro is more needed. Maybe a speedrun of gay things?
In the time since I've been away, the Queen fandom has produced a thriving library of compilation videos that did not exist before. This is fabulous for fandoming!
But it is TRULY TRAGIC that not one of these video compilations is of gay moments. No one has the sauce that's seasoning everything
a black and white edit that reads "the future includes trans people". around the text is a floral pattern. the image is grainy
the future is for trans people
My insecurity has been getting so bad that I don’t think I had one in-person social interaction today where I didn’t apologize for being there.
It’s a hard mode challenge, but I have got to try and reach a full day of not apologizing to someone for existing
I’m trying to take short walks that get my heart pumping everyday if I can (if I can’t I let that be okay too) and wouldn’t you know it they improve my mental health quite a bit
Hehehehehe I LOVE that the hormone injection supplies program I helped start is expanding beyond the trans community.
I’m starting to bond with people in the bodybuilding community and low t cis men. Eheheheheh a very tough looking buff guy and I just bonded over t and he gave me a very happy hug!
Again 🫦
#ofmd #ofmdfanart #gentlebeard #ourflagmeansdeath
Yes!
❤️❤️🫂
I opted out. Not only do I barely listen to BTS, but driving down only to sit alone or with my family? Nah
The last thing I expected first thing this morning was my dad asking me if I wanted to see BTS lmao what
A photo shows Freddie Mercury with a Polaroid camera in 1977
I changed my pfp because I've just accepted that the Queen fandom brainrot has crept its way back enough.
Oh no! I hope you feel better soon
So far I like Unreal (probably bc it sounds more like the rest of their discography) and Bang Bang because it sounds like it takes inspo from Love Shack by the B-52s
I’m sad I don’t like IVE’s comeback more. Prior to now I’ve liked most of their discography but this vibe isn’t hitting yet.
I do have a tendency to not like new releases as much because they’re new (my brain likes routine) so this may change
I’m reading Frankenstein rn and damn! This is a good book
It makes a lot of sense to me that I’d enjoy the original Frankenstein this much given that examining/playing with the notion of “what is monstrous” is among one of my favorite narratives in media, theory, etc.
Yes and what a strange fate it is
Finally, I decided it was time to buy boxers.
I've been wanting to buy boxers since I was a kid, and have spent most of my life adding them to carts only to not buy them.
The more trans stuff makes me feel neutral about having a body, the more I realize I don't have to yearn, I can just do.
Second, I also tried packing in public for the first time!
This morning I was like
"NOOOOO!! This is too much!! This is too personal!! AH!"
It was absolutely fine and in all honesty actually a little more comfortable given how bottom growth affects pants now (reminding me genitals exist...eughh)
Many a good thing today!
First, I got invited to tour Planned Parenthood. I was as super insecure as the only non-healthcare provider in the room.
But ah! Providers knew me from social media, and the questions I asked during Q&A taught people some new things (like that self-collect Paps exist)!
I think I will when I’m a little bit more comfortable with the idea of packing anyway…and I actually have a better idea of what gender affirming underwear is best for me (that’s the plan this month: get gender affirming underwear)
“They make underwear specifically for the type of packer I have, but like…I’m not trans enough to buy THAT” -me, the trans person who owns the specific type of packer for that underwear
I will be fine. Everyone’s gonna be okay.
I also saw a scrub jay with a stick in its mouth bounce on a branch while making a little trilling sound. Highlight of my day
The emotional beats of my weekend have been strange.
I did driving practice. I surprised my grandma with a visit and found out she has breast cancer but won’t tell family. I got my taxes done. I had fun hangout with a friend but learned they’re high risk for s— and have very limited supports. Ahhhh
Yeah just wasn’t it
This episode just isn’t doing it for me
Oh hey the man in the mask is the Master from Doctor Who!!
Sherlock and the dog are very entertaining
