Erin | Arami | Spoon

there is literally nothing wrong with being trans and anyone who says otherwise is a fascist who would kill and/or enslave your entire family at a moment's notice

OKAY LEGEND OF DRAGOON DID YOU REALLY JUST GO AND TAKE AWAY THE DRAGOON SPIRIT FROM DART? WHO I CAN'T SWAP OUT? SO... IM JUST FUCKING NERFED BECAUSE PLOT?

EAT MY CHEEKS. THATS BOLOGNA.

DRAGOON CHANGE IS HALF THE COMBAT SYSTEM. NOW, 1/3 OF MY TEAM IS JUST SHITTIER.

Thing I love about being trans number 3819: Hair.

This is another "multiple factors in play" affecting it, but regardless I'm allowing myself to grow it out and its growing in thicker where I had been basically bald before.
Its nice to have bouncy, fluffy curls even if its not as long as I want.

Yeah... i wasnt expecting to date a cute enby and watch them transition into a horrible tech bro.

0/10 metamorphosis

yeah... even if they're a pro-gen AI tech bro and not half as clever as they think they are... its not a good idea.

...it's probably a desire to not act on.

I just have an incredibly strong urge to pick a fight with my ex.

I hate that they still end up in my head rent-free. I hate what they did to me. I hate that the whole thing ended how it did.

I'm glad its over but it is a reminder healing is not linear.

happy miku day to all that celebrate it

show me ya moves #ffxiv

Thing I love about being trans number 8413: I'm soft

Like... VERY soft. Estrogen is doing its thing and my skin's changing for what I feel is the better. I'm afraid both my skincare and attention were lacking before but with both hrt and actually doing self care its much, much better.

Oh god...

Not yet. I'm digging into it after kiddo is in bed because I dont want to explain that Mop is crying because "<Censored> did <redacted> and <file not found> ended up <security clearance required>".

True!

But there is something to said for standing in the hall, reading Aftertaste, then - when the gut punch gets me - slumping against the wall, collapsing to the floor, and weeping.

standing and crying kinda bites

I went out for dinner with friends tonight and had a blast. It was good to chat with them all and we're looking forward to doing this again.

Met (most) of them thru WoW. I've met a lot of friends recently through FFXIV. MMOs seem to thrust me into wonderful communities.

aw heck, here we go again

time to go into my crying chair

The first rule of burning down the patriarchy is to never use other women for kindling.

deal! :)

One of the coolest things i get to see during late night doom scrolling is trans joy.

I love stumbling across a post or a video where some one is sharing something impactful or revelatory with the world. I get to witness joy and hope and self-love and that's wonderful.

Erin Millicent Willow <Mylastname>'s over here scoopin' up all those sweet additional middle names.

Thing I love about being trans number 7659:

The light in my eyes. Seeing that there's a real person in there when I look at my eyes in a mirror. Not someone who has given up and is just existing to get to the next day.

(therapy homework is to be positive to myself, so now ya'll end up with this)

The Sanctuary of the Errant convenes tomorrow evening.

I cannot wait to see them all again.

Shot day, and my spouse got me a treat for after injecting. <3

dancing green but i turn him into a little mochi thing

It's so much fun, absolute banger of a thing my brain does.

You know what? Libraries and librarians are fucking awesome.

I love bringing my kid there and seeing her excited for books she wants to read.

Libraries were my sanctuary when my home life was unsafe and unstable as a kid. I need to see how i can contribute to or help the ones near me.

This is one of the oldest photos I have. April 2009, many months before I even met my spouse. As with other before pics, I was happy and having a good time at a convention. PAX iirc.

I am not doing well. I am having a Bad Time(tm). I am so heavily dysphoric right now.

I know this can and will pass. There are circumstances I have not discussed publicly that are impacting this.

I hate this. I want it to end. I want to curl up and cry.

"soul feel" is like a mouth feel but for vibes. idk a better way to put it.

There are far longer and more detailed reasons for each name but a single "skeet" is not long enough for them.

All three are pretty and they have the same "soul feel" as my gender.

Erin: Homophone for my "legal" middle name. Feels correct.
Millicent: I have always liked "Millie" as a name but didn't want it as my first name.
Willow: I love these trees and it makes my initials EWW at arcade high scores.

Repost if your account is a safe space for the trans community. 🏳️‍⚧️

@chithemonkey.northsky.social
I'm so late in adding this: this really, really does also need directed your way too, Hope.
You did so much for me directly and when I needed it I was able to look to your example for guidance. I got to today, as Erin, with your help. Thank you.