HOLY BEAST

low-key i should go off of meds and start taking hard drugs

kinda miss being on 4 or 5 different psych meds

and rivotril too

kinda miss abilify

done

okii! give me a minute

oh that's too bad :( welp we can manage to talk to each other there or if you prefer discord that's also okay i don't mind giving you mine

i mean it, if you want to go to the dms and just talk about anything that comes to your mind i'm free

thank you 🥹 that means a lot! if you need anything or just want to talk i'm here for you too!

one of my best friends has a bpd dx and he's disabled because of bpd and adhd

he has worse symptoms of bpd than i do (i have the bpd dx too) and... man, i don't really think i have bpd

his symptoms are disabling, mine come from a different thing and are disabling in a really different way

EEUU son el demonio, satán, criaturas sin moral, sabes qué esperar

Pero los líderes de la UE son aberraciones arrastradas y serviles. Y encima no les votan, para joder más.

i have deprax again and oh boy i swear i'm gonna fucking overdose

i cannot cry thanks to antidepressants but i hurt

fuck ICE, fuck the police, fuck every army, fuck every state, fuck civilization

i don't care about your fucking troops! i care about the hundreds, thousands, millions of brown lives they've taken away over the years, i care about the vietnamese and korean people they've killed, i care about the black and brown people the ICE have killed or kidnapped

fuck the american troops

i'm really scared of having a job again because i tend to mess everything up because of my forgetfulness and clumsiness, because i'm weird and people notice it

i feel selfish because what i need is someone who's able to be my caretaker

and no one seems to understand

i will be like a broken bicycle forever

my brain is wired to be suicidal and a self harmer, it is wired to be in freeze or flight response; it is wired to be overstimulated and exhausted by every little thing that happens, every sensory input

i truly think i won't stop being suicidal, EVER

it's so ingrained into my brain and my body, the same as being self harmer

there will be times in which i won't notice the signs & symptoms at all, and there will be times in which i will fucking display all of them

and i don't want to be like this

i'm glad that you're doing fine and working on your projects.

about me... welp, it's been quite some days that i'm not doing great, tbh, but thanks for asking!

es que quiero rajarme entero macho

parecía que este febrero había remontado un poco pero NO

deprimida con ganas de autolesionarme y suicidarme por enésima vez odio marzo

Repost if you're down like the economy

how's it going?

THERE'S NOT ENOUGH VALIUM IN THIS WORLD