caylee 🏳️‍🌈🐱🤖🏳️‍⚧️

switching to wifi and it immediately started downloading again. there is nothing wrong with my wired connection, it's just this OS install that hasn't liked it.

This can only be a good omen.

wait what the fuck how long has THIS existed!?

ah. the installer is written in Python. that tracks.

disabled the internet entirely and the installer has simply not noticed.

hey, did you know, when you install windows, the USB drive actually contains windows!! it does not need the internet to just do the install.

(*cough* yes, windows 11 requires an account now, but not for the actual installation!)

"oh cachy is arch based of course it needs the internet"
this sort of attitude is why people hate linux, fwiw

oh good, the install is stuck downloading at 19%
why did it not come with everything on the installation media

honestly this is a big part of why i'm not using unreal. i just really, really struggle to do anything complex in visual programming systems. it's completely a skill issue on my part, but my brain just does not Work That Way, i need to write it in text

if it supported C# i'd have jumped years ago

turns out the warning is meaningless because no bootloader supports encrypting the boot partition, except one which won't be guaranteed to work on my motherboard

LINUX! HUZZAH!

they did suggest taking gaviscon (didn't prescribe it though lol). but that actually makes me worse, as it's so heavy i just end up throwing it back up

the cachyos install has already been Annoyingly Linuxy and i'm regretting even thinking of doing this shit lmao

(as in, the simple install option offers no drive encryption, and doing it manually throws a warning that i should encrypt /boot but there's no option to do that)

not me forgetting that my monitor goes up to 240hz lol

They want to run this test again because it's been two years, but also because the secretaries didn't properly copy my medical records over when giving me a new NHS number.

They wanna run tests first, which I understand, except one of the tests is one we've done before (and was negative) and requires me coming off the medication they're currently prescribing which neutralises the acid.

Say what you will about Graber's tenure, it is undeniably taxing when you're constantly odds with the userbase about which ones of them are people

I needed to hear this today.

a guide to flaming out YouTube video by Innuendo Studios

This video did not feel like it was 40 minutes long. www.youtube.com/watch?v=zv1S...

I've had people say "oh, why don't you just disconnect from the day-job? it's just work" but I literally cannot do that. I am not wired that way. I *have to* care about it, or else I won't be able to work on it for an extended period. I just can't do it.

I'll never stop making things. I know that. But... work wise, I just. I don't know. I poured so much of myself into every job I've ever had, either in my off-hours or as a day-job. And I don't really think there's much left of me to put into anything that isn't *mine*.

I'm trapped with a debt burden that means I need to keep a roughly consistent level of income to what I have now, which is pretty much reserved only for tech or high-level management jobs in the UK, and I am *not* a manager. And yet staying in this space is eating me from the inside.

But this is where my skills are! This is literally what I spent my entire life working toward. I was that kid fucking around with random OSes, trying to make games and learn to code, because that's what I really wanted to do.

And... I don't really know *who* I am without that.

I don't even know what I'm able to do next, let alone what I *want* to do. Getting to work in music was one of my ideal scenarios post-gamedev. And that's gone to complete shit and ruined my mental health pretty much as bad as games did.

Realising that I'll probably be done working in tech after this job is starting to hit me, I think. I don't think I can keep working in this space without hating myself.

Speaking of, if anyone needs a ui/ux person let me know, someone very dear to me was caught in the layoffs today and is looking for work

The second half of the album gets really experimental - I don't think the experiments work all that well, at all, but it's hard to be as bad as Rudebox itself.

That said, the track where someone continually talks about literal shit is. A choice.

I flipflop on whether the title track is funny-bad or cringe-bad. I'm leaning toward the latter at the moment. It's quite the spectacle.

I wonder if any other album has been quite so destroyed by its lead single/title/first track.

Rudebox is an impressively bad song. Like. Awful. Obviously a bad idea from start to finish. But the rest of the album ranges from actually quite good to confusing, rather than properly bad.

"discover league of legends" no thanks i'm already depressed

feels like we're soon going to be seeing a lot more people who have gone all-in on AI grappling with "you're almost certainly going to end up liable for massive fuck-ups based on your work that incorporated GenAI, not the company who made the GenAI software that you used."

GTAV has sold 225 million copies but it is apparently unexplored according to Twitch