Forgot this existed

Annnndddd bye again!

BUT I am so proud of myself stepping up and not having to tell everyone and look for compliments or you go. I ain’t going to be perfect but I need it to be livable.

I scream this on here because I don’t really have a ton of personal people on here and I’m doing this for me and only me.

Past few days I’ve walked past a mirror and been like shit things are changing. I’ve done some minor house stuff I’ve been putting off, buying clothing that fits not just waiting for a good time and back to therapy once a week instead of emerg mental breaks.

Since Jan with the help of my twerps I’ve got back to looking after myself mind, body, and soul type of deal. It started with an idea of dry Jan and getting back to exercise. I’ve seen some progress but basically getting back to real basics nothing crazy just forming habits.

Yah that’s rough I gain about 5pds around my period it always makes go whyyy you do this body!

On a plus side separating myself has been working wonders

I don’t need to know every detail happening while I’m not there. Like cool someone is nice, wow that sucks people are bitching, oh wow gossip. Just stop 🫠

Le sigh

Friend: what did you do for new years
Me: nothin hung out at home
Friend: good for you that’s so brave
Me: 🙃

I know it’s acceptable to feel sad I’ve been ignored but also valid to move the fuck forward.

I also heard this and had a giggle

Sometimes you drink a bottle of wine and get in your feels

I always love going through my year in photos. This year was tough grief is strange it comes and goes. Friendships grew. Others faded. Caught feels. Lost feels. Felt my heart break. Want to keep growing and out myself out there in 2025. Sentimental feels.

This a way different kind of loud lol. Thing is a spaceship

Creami got old but it’s fun to have but hella loud.

I love that the human I manage wants to keep me in the loop but I’m also sooo burnt out plz leave me alone

I feel absolutely anti social

Def in my feels again it’s that time of year for sureeee

I had a tripod friend group, I was closer individually to both separately. 1 has completely ignored me, I’ve backed off because it sucks but realizing I deserve a better friend. Last night I messaged to check in she posted stories and fb posts but no reply to me. Confirms my feelings. ✌️

Well so much for getting past the awkwardness 🙃

Lots of good activity to feel less stressed about today being so hectic

Feeling a lot better today! Settling into the uncomfortable also it’s life

The worst!

You want to appear chill and cool because you don’t want to make a deal of it but you’re also not that kind of person and you like to talk through things.

You know when your own head about to approach situations and you’re trying to think of every angle. That’s me right now. 🙃

How far do I say fuck it tomorrow evening

Simple please and thank yous go a long way when asking me to do thing for you

Pardon