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@clancystardust

โ€ข they/them โ€ข 24 โ€ข ๐Ÿ‡ต๐Ÿ‡ฑ โ€ข INTJ fan & personal account kpop (ults: iKON, SVT, Monsta X) I WAS ON THE JUMBOTRON #ClancyHamburg !!! juni saw pilots juni saw fob juni saw u-kwon genderfluid TW: bipolar, sh, ed

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I'm still here

09.03.2026 21:21 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I applied,, let's see how it goes. Now this week's goal is to go to work 3 times and get up at 10am

09.03.2026 21:20 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I GOT IT CHAT,, I HAVE DOCTOR'S OPINION FOR MY LEAVE OF ABSENCE APPLICATION

09.03.2026 16:15 ๐Ÿ‘ 3 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Am I bipolar2, am I bpd or am I just depressed with some major mood swings and occasional episodes of insanity?

Stay tuned to find out!

(hopefully this year)

09.03.2026 15:44 ๐Ÿ‘ 0 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Chat why are doctor's appointments so stressful ๐Ÿ˜ญ

09.03.2026 15:38 ๐Ÿ‘ 4 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I would like to say a very happy birthday to all women today

08.03.2026 23:40 ๐Ÿ‘ 18 ๐Ÿ” 7 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I think I don't want to accept it because I know that I'm going to be devastated. And I'm going to be in a couple of days because I just realised I've come a full circle again.

08.03.2026 23:42 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

my support system i thought would be with me, because they made me believe they would, foe the last couple of months

3/7 and if we don't count the internet 1/4

I'm still in denial. I just don't want to believe that, you know. And maybe I'm just playing a victim rn but it really hurts.

08.03.2026 23:42 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I just foolishly believed that this time it's actually possible

08.03.2026 23:36 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Or...or maybe I'm just unlovable and too much to be around

08.03.2026 23:28 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I know... I just really don't want to tell that to anyone. I feel like at the end it's always turned against me.

08.03.2026 23:05 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I hurt people and I go insane anytime I'm getting close to someone. I start to realise why I never had friends before or why I never kept people close longer than just a couple of months. And I just don't think people would feel my absence.

They won't allow me to die, because they would feel bad

08.03.2026 22:42 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Grandtherapist ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

08.03.2026 22:26 ๐Ÿ‘ 2 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

What if I disappear but not due. Just go somewhere far and never contact anyone I know and just be for a while and then die

08.03.2026 22:25 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I want to disappear and just never come back

08.03.2026 20:47 ๐Ÿ‘ 4 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I don't think I have ever had such a problem to get over someone before

08.03.2026 20:43 ๐Ÿ‘ 2 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Thank you! Yes I did!

08.03.2026 20:24 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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happy international women's day to every woman on here, and to everyone who suffers from misogyny. even if it stems from capitalism, i'm always up for a nice excuse for flowers, but let's also remember the roots of this date and honor the women who fought for us and fight for liberation of all โค๏ธโ€๐Ÿฉน

08.03.2026 09:13 ๐Ÿ‘ 58 ๐Ÿ” 20 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 2 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

3 days was nice you know. It was really nice

08.03.2026 12:19 ๐Ÿ‘ 2 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I don't remember what my dream was. But I remember I ft really comfortable around this person, even though I was naked (for some reason???). And idk who it was or what the fuck was going on

08.03.2026 11:53 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Just vaguely, I said I struggle with my health

08.03.2026 10:42 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I feel like shit today :(( 4/10

08.03.2026 10:42 ๐Ÿ‘ 2 ๐Ÿ” 1 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Yeah it is. Especially when it's so early, and like we're still getting to know each other. We only met 3 times

07.03.2026 23:28 ๐Ÿ‘ 2 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I think so. I mean I do like her, just not like that. I don't think I'm attracted to her, and now instead of feeling nice after having a good time, I'm anxious about what I should do. My feelings are in a mess right now and I don't know if I can get emotionally attached to anyone right now

07.03.2026 22:10 ๐Ÿ‘ 3 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Oh dear lord

07.03.2026 22:08 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

She put her head on my arm today pls what do I do what do I tell her,, I feel so bad. We have to talk about it.

07.03.2026 21:35 ๐Ÿ‘ 3 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I'm on my way to meet with someone and I just want to go back home, I don't want to talk. I just want to hide in bed and read a book.

07.03.2026 14:01 ๐Ÿ‘ 28 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 4 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I'm so fucking anxious

07.03.2026 13:58 ๐Ÿ‘ 0 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

I'm thinking about him and my heart aches wtf can I be free

07.03.2026 13:58 ๐Ÿ‘ 0 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Literally what the fuck?? The only reason I've never been to opera or ballet is either money or availability

07.03.2026 12:23 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0