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@clancystardust
โข they/them โข 24 โข ๐ต๐ฑ โข INTJ fan & personal account kpop (ults: iKON, SVT, Monsta X) I WAS ON THE JUMBOTRON #ClancyHamburg !!! juni saw pilots juni saw fob juni saw u-kwon genderfluid TW: bipolar, sh, ed
I'm still here
I applied,, let's see how it goes. Now this week's goal is to go to work 3 times and get up at 10am
I GOT IT CHAT,, I HAVE DOCTOR'S OPINION FOR MY LEAVE OF ABSENCE APPLICATION
Am I bipolar2, am I bpd or am I just depressed with some major mood swings and occasional episodes of insanity?
Stay tuned to find out!
(hopefully this year)
Chat why are doctor's appointments so stressful ๐ญ
I would like to say a very happy birthday to all women today
I think I don't want to accept it because I know that I'm going to be devastated. And I'm going to be in a couple of days because I just realised I've come a full circle again.
my support system i thought would be with me, because they made me believe they would, foe the last couple of months
3/7 and if we don't count the internet 1/4
I'm still in denial. I just don't want to believe that, you know. And maybe I'm just playing a victim rn but it really hurts.
I just foolishly believed that this time it's actually possible
Or...or maybe I'm just unlovable and too much to be around
I know... I just really don't want to tell that to anyone. I feel like at the end it's always turned against me.
I hurt people and I go insane anytime I'm getting close to someone. I start to realise why I never had friends before or why I never kept people close longer than just a couple of months. And I just don't think people would feel my absence.
They won't allow me to die, because they would feel bad
Grandtherapist ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
What if I disappear but not due. Just go somewhere far and never contact anyone I know and just be for a while and then die
I want to disappear and just never come back
I don't think I have ever had such a problem to get over someone before
Thank you! Yes I did!
happy international women's day to every woman on here, and to everyone who suffers from misogyny. even if it stems from capitalism, i'm always up for a nice excuse for flowers, but let's also remember the roots of this date and honor the women who fought for us and fight for liberation of all โค๏ธโ๐ฉน
3 days was nice you know. It was really nice
I don't remember what my dream was. But I remember I ft really comfortable around this person, even though I was naked (for some reason???). And idk who it was or what the fuck was going on
Just vaguely, I said I struggle with my health
I feel like shit today :(( 4/10
Yeah it is. Especially when it's so early, and like we're still getting to know each other. We only met 3 times
I think so. I mean I do like her, just not like that. I don't think I'm attracted to her, and now instead of feeling nice after having a good time, I'm anxious about what I should do. My feelings are in a mess right now and I don't know if I can get emotionally attached to anyone right now
Oh dear lord
She put her head on my arm today pls what do I do what do I tell her,, I feel so bad. We have to talk about it.
I'm on my way to meet with someone and I just want to go back home, I don't want to talk. I just want to hide in bed and read a book.
I'm so fucking anxious
I'm thinking about him and my heart aches wtf can I be free
Literally what the fuck?? The only reason I've never been to opera or ballet is either money or availability