i remember looking at the open mug of booze that i'd sloshed all over the forest, seeing my half-naked trans body, seeing the furry tail my 12 year old self wouldve killed to scamper around in, feeling loved and free not embarrassed i was just existing
been at job 1 all day now we go to job 2. AND IM STILL FUCKING BROKE how how howhowhow
some more little thingies about going to the burn with my love last summer .....................................................................
trying to be casual about the fact i just overheard my middle school student go "AND ITS HE/THEY!!" to his mom about me during class but im sitting here like
k i immediately lost these
how does one move to/live in nyc. if theyre broke. considering smthg temporary for next year. maybe. i dont know.
looking back at my oc's from high school to college and im like wait was this a trans metaphor
hi
MY STYLE IS ALL OVER THE FUCKING PLACE AND IT IS NOTTTTT UP TO MY CONTROL
digital sketch page of the lamb from cult of the lamb, drawn in a chalky cartoony style. the lamb is talking, saying "i think everyone should be married to me and live forever and eat each other's dead bodies and never grow old and have sex and prance around naked and drunk all day and if you dissent to this i kill you."
welcome to my awesome cult
#cotl #cultofthelamb
my elementary school read the mysteries of harris burdick and ever since that sorta thing has become a big bias of mine too...
i just realized i said this after this week i went to a grant writing workshop and gave myself some deadlines what the FUCK is wrong with me
right now i will absorb art and eat food and maybe some dancing nights out and do my jobs and give myself melatonin induced dreams
trying to be at peace with the fact that im swinging HARD into burnout-reset-mode after magfest and just let myself do nothing for a bit
digital illustration of a cartoon ermine character
LOOKY i made another fursona his name is MINKY... get it ... minky....
he likes 80s new wave and biting and attacking the other forest critters and going to the club.
but knowing you're also going out makes me feel less insane about this
i think im doing schubas for kaleidescope :0
is it fucking stupid to try and go to the club tonight its -14F out
but ive been getting depressed and stir crazy all week
I LOVE BALTIMOREEE
FUCK YAH like i 1000% understand having ur heart in a city so i never wanna patronize that sentiment, but i was hoping you'd be able try a new city. i think the only way to stay would be starting a new community in pgh, which isn't what u wanna do ... THIS IS REALLY EXCITING
This GFM for the ICE agent who killed Renee Good is still up and they have raised close to a million dollars. Please read this thread and report the fundraiser. This man killed an innocent person and will most likely kill again because that's what ICE agents do. He doesn't deserve to be wealthy.
on a somewhat related note i finally am getting my medical shit together (guy who had a tumor a long time ago voice.) being not-depressed is wild bc now i do wanna prolong this life lmao
- and MOVEMENT and creativity and people who are so so so so passionate about their stake in life and express it via art mediums i really love (games, music, community parties.)
im so happy to be alive
- i come home to my city's game-art collective hosting a mixer soon, my local friends v seriously planning an experimental collab project with me, just got off a call with another friend to refresh a board game project, my gf's band is playing on friday at a fun venue. im surrounded by ART and -
im so thankful i feel like ive found It
in years before i'd come home from the big event (magfest) that i structure my whole Heart around, i'd come home to abrupt stagnation and creative hopelessness
but this year -
unsurprisingly this came back and caused MORE issues... but i figured it out for real this time. 1 camera.
WHEN DID U DO MULLET
yes............. i think mullet often leans dirtbag, and that would be a very fun contrast with ur line of work and interests and current aesthetic sense. also if u hate it, u can just chop off the bottom and ur back to short hair!
how do u handle friends that consistently mess up ur pronouns, but DO immediately correct themselves? it still gives me massive dysphoria b4 and after every hang, and i dont wanna mix em w/ friends that DO see me for me, in case that wrong perception rubs off on them ?
#artvsartist ! i got a LONG sentimental post about this on my insta, but the tldr is that 2025 was a lot.
my highlights are:
- was a guest speaker on magfest alt control panel
- showed bloodrage as its own event at a Real venue
- showed my solo game, pan, 3x (incl barcelona!)
- didnt die
