stephie *ೃ༄

never fucking mind she still here GO AWAYYY

yeah it felt good 😭 i still don’t have a proper journal i can’t find one i actually like :( im
going to look for one tomorrow hehe

after 7 days i finally got off my period and i feel so much more human and normal wtf was that i was going insane 😭

light yagami shit is so serious

it’s like being possessed ngl it’s fun to witness

did a little writing in my journal and u can see exactly the moment i switched up and started crashing out because my handwriting went from neat to whatever the fuck that was on god girl let it out i guess 😭

my

i kinda wanna cut mai hair short 🤔

a close up of a dog 's face with its eyes closed and looking at the camera . ALT: a close up of a dog 's face with its eyes closed and looking at the camera .

i think i’m going through a phase again. everyone at work keeps asking if im ok my body feels like trash i feel like trash everything makes me wanna cry kmgggg why can’t i have normal hormones

Tiny, colorful baby scallops — a total cuteness overload in one dish!

You might think, “This person posts the same creature every year!” But honestly, seeing the same life return year after year is something truly wonderful𓂃🫧‪

sorry i gotta get it outta my system it’s like detox

monthly i hate chilumi

the way i would never

working saturday but having a day off on friday should be illegal

;)

show me

smth shifted i don’t like the thoughts ive been having what is this. STOP THIBKING ABOUT HIM!!!!

idk what’s going on but the energy i’ve been feeling these days is crazy

for*

anyway zhongchi i love you i contributed in the void form you

damn i haven’t posted writing like
this in ages i think the last time was iwaoi

me using this place to word vomit because no one will see and i can write whatever i want without feeling judged for my bad grammar and writing

childe will forever be the boy who fell into the depths of the earth, the delinquent which emerged, the monster which became a weapon.

but ajax sits quietly into the depths of his heart, eyes wide with curiosity as he observes the faint glow of amber seeping within cracks. maybe that’s enough.

warm hands cradle his face. suddenly ajax is at home, bundled in blankets and drinking hot chocolate in front of the fireplace. he’s safe, he’s untainted. tears brim at the corners of his eyes, and zhongli kisses each and every single one of them away.

zhongli chuckles softly, and there’s a heaviness in hischest he doesn’t recognize. it seizes his heart, wraps around it and squeezes. instead of blood tainted from the abyss, now flows gold.

more, he needs more. ajax pulls zhongli flush against him, face burring in the crook of zhongli’s neck. he breathes in, basks himself into light, into warmth. all of his senses are overwhelmed by the wonderful smell of jasmine tea and silk flowers. he doesn’t want to pull away.

“ ajax, do not be afraid. ”

a sharp inhale that feels like a stab in his lungs. ajax finally gives in, calloused pads tracing gently over zhongli’s sides. his heart hammers in his chest.

blood doesn’t seep out, nor does zhongli scream in pain.

childe’s fingers ghost across zhongli’s skin. they tremble, they fear— no longer holding a weapon, every part of him is vulnerable and inexperienced. his fingers twitch, hovering in the air. he’s scared of tainting something so holy, so beautiful. what childe touches, he ruins.

a longing for gentle touch, despite possessing hands perfectly crafted for destruction. a hunger for love and connection, despite an insatiable greed for ruptured bones and teared flesh. it comes like second nature, golden light seeping through corrosion.

two weeks of me not having time for myself at all