Ruby Van der Zanden

1 week til my driving test 😅🫡

new embroidery complete ✨🕯️🫶 really love this one

i did a perfect one first try yesterday 🤗

haha cool nice my landlord just gave notice were being kicked out so they can sell up 🤡

think what frustrates me most about being unable to find work is i know im really employable. ive come so close and been told this by a bunch of employers now but keep being the runner up. i haven't even been well enough to work til about now but it's still just exhausting

how does one....not be horrifically overwhelmed about being unemployed and moving cities...not asking for a friend. asking for me 🥲

if one more never been concussed person tries to tell me how to manage my fatigue i will actually jump out a window x (fuck off)

why parallel park so niggly 😠 this is the last thing i need to get down before i sit my test in like 2 weeks

biked 18kms today!! tired after but managed to not fall asleep. im recovering im recovering 🥰

random thing i unexpectedly got into in 2023: wrestling

my driving is getting better and better! thank god cos im sitting my test at the end of this month 🥹 (im nervous)

Image from watanpalestine’s insta, with Gaza wrapped in Xmas lights. It reads “All I want for Christmas is the end of the genocide in Gaza”

just a periodic reminder that sex worker rights, trans rights, and abortion rights are all the same issue.

you’re either for bodily autonomy, or you’re against it.

drove home and zak said I drive like a robot but its fine cos im not breaking any road rules...ill take that

love seeing other people in my age range just learning to drive now! I was made to feel ashamed for years that i only had my learners. anyway booked my test for january pray for me

so is mine!!! it makes all the difference to be honest! driving stresses me out so much 😅

concussion fatigue causing meltdown that in turn causes its own meltdown. im so tired. the fatigue and dilirium is honestly the worst part of this injury. i want my life back. it's been 8 months. when the fuck will i be normal again :(

only word i have is GAY

my birthday was actually good my concussion just makes me emotional and very depressed when im tired, which is often so I frequently feel sad for no reason! due to my brain not having enough battery lol

i don't like to be negative on my birthday but my mum has a habit of ruining it. however i do have my found family 🥰 and i had a little party yesterday and it was the nicest time Ive had in months tbh 🥰☀️

i now celebrate my birthday a day prior bc on the actual day (today) i have to close all my curtains and pretend im not home bc my mother without asking says she's going to drop by (and did not say when 🥲)

gonna be twenny siggs on sunday 🥺

he said i did super well 🥰

going for a lesson with a driving instructor today!! hoping to get my license really soon 🥰💪🚗

ill be good by then but im not :/ trying to not just be negative but i can't help when i have setbacks to feel like it's gonna take a long time still :( im tired of recovery UGH id give anything for a fully functioning brain

at that point in injury recovery where im like am i just making this up?? maybe actually fine but then i go in the car and start crying cause it made me feel nauseous. also stressing cos i like need to be fine so i can move cities in march lol. zaks convinced

just read this and it resonated so much. i let out a large exhale at the end because the words sank deep. beautiful, special piece Casey 🏔️

i love when i just let myself cry and have a little meltdown and feel so much lighter after. good shit. im gonna bake a pie today i think :)

he's home 🥺

my little winslow just got rushed to the vet :( poor wee guy