#poetry #limerance
Another day of limerance
Assault from fantasies
I sit in veritable reverence
Of one who might like me
But every vision's tainted
From interpreting replies
We've barely even aquatinted
I know these visions lie
I miss the kindled kisses
As we attempt to stop the clock
Before the alarm is snoozed
One last time...
I miss the whispered words
Over the phone
As giggles turn to smiles
And fade into gentle snooze
I miss our dreary death
Upon our parting
Never truly living
Until we meet again
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#poetry #love #longing
I miss the glancing glimpses
That somehow shatter
Any autistic discomfort
To leave my eyes enshimmered
I miss the tender touch
Those moments spent
Tracing silhouettes with finger tips
To remember every inch of you
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#poetry
Will I ever write
the perfect words
so you
feel
in every inch
of your being
the
anguish
the
loathing
the
utter despair
that is
pounding
and raking
at my fractured ribs
desperate
to wretch
it's way
to
you
I want to be there
For you...
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#poetry
I want to be there
In your thoughts...
When the morning chills
And you wake alone
Shivering for my warmth
When life is unexpected
And you need to share the story
Reaching for my ear
When you're at your lowest
Drowning in the realities of life
Gasping for my comfort
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#poetry
I have been falling
For eons I suppose
Desperately grasping at cliffs
For a moment I'm fine
And maybe this time
I'll climb to the top somehow
But every ache
From every mistake
Leaves me without a chance
My fingers then shake
As It or I break
And continuing on I do fall
#poetry
The tatters of my mind drape heavy over my bruised heart. As the kindling of memories ignite the scraps. And I smolder and hiss and spit... until naut but ash remains.
#poetry #depression
I'll stifle my shivers
From those frigid frights
And wear the mask
Reminiscing the sun
Let not a soul
See you down
For their warmth
May set you ablaze
Stop prostrating yourself
For the forgiveness
They have stolen
Stop treating yourself
Like your psyche
Is quickly mended
Stop pretending this all
Isn't venom
When you know it
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#poetry #abuse
Frustrations in Me
---
Stop blaming yourself
For their actions
And inactions
Stop fearing their spite
Or their aspersions
When they hurl them
Stop tracing your steps
For a lesson
In the footprints
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This tale's prelude graces gently...
Before it swells into a sting!
As melodies invert and minor chords clash!
Until shrill trills leave me deafened.
But as time carries me,
Broken upon its back
I wistfully hum
As another joins in round... once more
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#poetry
Never do they satisfy,
The timber of their words, too familiar
Spoken in memetics tones
That... hollow tongue that begs me to see
To see that I am loved when I am unlovable.
That beauty bleeds from my monstrosity.
That I am worth more than the nothing I am!
But I have learned...
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I want to carry more of this
Inside my broken mind
I'll cherish all the whispers
From my trio sweet last night
#poetry #poly #saphic #trans
They tell me I am gorgeous
They tell me I am kind
They tell me that my cheeks have burst
In shades of pink divine
They tell me I'm intimidating
They tell me that I'm soft
They tell me that my breasts are round
As they slip beneath my smock
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I'm tossed with haste to the anvil
As he shapes me,
With vitriolic precision
Every flaw found, flattened.
Every comely curve, crushed.
Now only serated steel remains...
Never to be held again
By soft touch
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#poetry #abuse
Fury's Forge
Rage flashes, his hammer to my steel
The billow building...
His heat carving its way
Through skin.
and flesh.
and nerves.
and sinew.
to my brittle core
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Every "no, but I love you so"
Was met with guilty pleas
To fill the hole
Inside her soul
She took a piece from me
As waking rakes of skin on lace
Is all my mind will gleam
I lie in wait
For sleeps embrace
But still she haunts my dreams
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#poetry #abuse #sa
Haunted by remembrances
My snooze has me abandoned
As every friend
Leaves me again
To say her lust was welcome
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#poetry #depression #writersBlock
When all words fail
And silence hails
My mind a muddled mew
My feelings lost
To time, its cost
No words to paint their hue
Let me live again,
One day
The daughter you now know
To be complete
Let life repeat
To suffer not my woes
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#poetry #trans #reincarnation
Let me live again,
One day
Without the ties or suits
To run with glee,
And fall for thee
In dresses laced too cute
Let me live again,
One day
To dance under the moon
In rapturous form
We sing til worn
A sisterhood communes
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A joining in grief
But alone in a crowd
No names are exchanged
Just rain clouds allowed
No comfort conveyed
No smile is imposed
Just dazed in malaise
With suffering transposed
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#poetry #loneliness
Everyone's lonely
And no one will talk
But they'll whimper with fervor
While docked with the flock
"No one to talk to"
They'll crow to the crows
As every beak turns
To pose their own woes
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Healing begins,
Not with fresh wounds sewn,
But when sanity wins,
And we're left all alone.
It will be hard,
For you and me,
To pick up each shard,
Of our broken destiny.
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#poetry #suggestive #yearning
Oh to rush and drip,
Into your cup's embrace,
To swirl upon thy ruby rim,
Or lurid lips to grace
Eagerly I'm taken,
Your warmth wholely immersed,
To be consumed with frenzy,
In service to your thirst
#poetry #abuse #triggered
I buried those frights
In shallow graves
Hastily covered
Out of sight
But every rain
Returns them again
As soil viel lifts
And they stalk the night
#poetry #crush #friend
Will we smile upon our meet
And laugh
And cry
At awful jokes?
Will she speak the same to me?
She's kind
Online.
But now? Who knows...
Will I fail to keep this friend?
Somehow
For now
I haven't choked...
I'll have to tame my heart again.
This crush
I must
Not let it grow...
Perhaps there's more to buy
To further fill my room
But every purchase lies
Its clutter shines with gloom
I guess I'll lie here staring
My weekend's lost its hue
Another day of boredom
With nothing left to do
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#poetry #bored
A spell of boredom entrenches
Its paralytic tune
Upon my mind it afixes
To ruin my afternoon
My games no longer play
My TV brings me a snooze
A book would would surely sway
If only I could choose...
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