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You underestimate my joy in gothic humour

If it weren’t for the symptoms, I’d forget too!!

Waiting to hear back from the boy’s consultant because we might (probably) need to get him reviewed as his breathing is off after Sunday’s transfusion. Drawing what I can see of my garden.

a cat laying on a bed with a blue blanket ALT: a cat laying on a bed with a blue blanket

Don’t rule out pollen, even if you’re not allergic. The air is thick with tree blossom jizz

Life calls for more coffee this morning.
I’m wondering how to make my outdoors space more pleasurable and toying with moving it all to The Med.

Is probably related to poorly tooth - are your glands a bit inflamed maybe? Poor thing, I had one pulled last year after a failed root canal. Am lucky I still have an NHS dentist although it’s still outrageously expensive.

100%

My neighbours are going to be very worried when I stagger out into the street wrapped in sopping clothed trying to suffocate myself

I note your engagement with this dilemma & chuckle at how it has struck a chord for you

When you wake in a burning forest what do you do first?

(It is not a literal question)

- Brutal Land -
Festival Drayton Centre. Market Drayton
Now open .. all welcome!
www.festivaldraytoncentre.com/index.php

Coin used as Leeds bus fare was 2,000‑year‑old currency The coin was handed down to Peter Edwards from his grandfather in the 1950s.

This is the sort of thing a cashless society robs us of, the opportunity to try to get away with paying the bus fare in Carthaginian currency www.bbc.co.uk/news/article...

Doctor gave me some of the medicine that allows you to dissolve in the rain

Plastic plants are .. a barometer of how divorced from reality we have become.

Anyone can become disabled at any time.

Your life can change in an instant, no matter how strong and healthy you think you are.

People will leave you. Funds will dry up. Life will get tougher.

It’s not a moral failing.

It’s a minority group you can join anytime.

I love the word dolorous, for what it’s worth.
I’m calmer now and reading Kathleen Jamie’s Sightlines but my eyes are now tired so I shall attempt some sleep. What’s that line about wanting to dream? I’d love some psychedelic escapism please.

Simple painting of a graveyard in summer

Found myself in a state of lachrymose terror over losing loved ones. Ears ringing, nose swollen, eyes raw, I’ve been sobbing into my pillow in anticipatory grief, missing the feller, missing my Son. I know because I’m a counsellor why it is. Still incredibly hard to manage. Had a cup of milk.

Anyway, don’t mind me, I’ve been writing existential poetry, listening to marimba music and missing the feller like mad.

“You gotta earn respect” sayers.. are essentially applying their moral preferences and deciding people who express alternative preferences are worth disrespect. I suppose it’s a way of introducing shame/condemnation & effort to establish dominant ideology. “If you disagree (with me) you’re wrong.”

Because I can’t even, with some people. Respect for autonomy, dignity, difference (even when I’m not on board) is the practice of open minded tolerance. There are limits & boundaries of course.

I just NEVER EVER think I can disrespect someone until they impress me somehow & then I’ll throw crumbs.

Do you believe that demonstration of respect to other human beings is based on the innate dignity of every individual

.. or do you believe that respect is only ever earned through submission to rule?

All has apparently gone well & he’ll be home later on.

We wait until some turns up

I’ve taken my daughter for a driving lesson & cooked a roast

Turns out he has to have irradiated blood & the hospital hasn’t got any.

Sent my lad back to hospital today this time with his Dad (it’s his contact weekend & for once I absolutely refused to flex). He needs a blood transfusion, poor thing. Hopefully he’ll feel so much better afterwards though.

Don't kill squid.

Worn my fabulous trolleys again today.

My kids habitually went through glass 1930s doors so I replaced them with cheap MDF filler but can’t see a plain surface without wanting to decorate it (especially when i’m given a selection of paint tester pots!) Second is WIP

I am virtually blind. It’s very sad as an artist. Even have some macular changes I’m.. keeping an eye on.