UNKNOWNER: Sirius

"Haha, oops!"

Have to delay business due to this folly...

I've heard a lot about others that have faced medical malpractice that want to sue. But they'd be against the government since it's them who approved the machines... 🫠 Ongoing battle too, which sucks. You vs the medical system...

I do know they changed regulations though but damage has been done.

Hot potatoing someone's problems might make them resort to unhealthy self-help. If I have brain damage just tell me ffs instead of all of this! Just admit I was right about it.

Suuuure I might sue too, but...

"There is nothing wrong."
"Okay there might be something wrong."
"There is something wrong, sure. But it's not my field."

🫠 Why you gotta gaslight me man? My experience with doctors is tanking. Is this necessary? I am suffering and they want to test my mettle or something.

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Inspiration paralysis

Dogs wall-eyeing people is funny sometimes and all, but I am genuinely surprised at people treating it like a super unique reaction. It's like they've never had their parents side-eye them or something. 😅

I'd been harassed once when cosplaying in a strange way, and don't really want a second occurrence. Pet the dog, not me!

I was thinking of an Ansha cosplay for the old lady, since she already wears the boots with the socks LOL
Everyone loves a happy pet in cosplay. 🙏 Plus, smaller scale and fun conversions. So if a character wears glasses, I'll have to figure out how to place them on a dog snout. Shoes are no issue!

I've always wanted to cosplay but have been pretty afraid to for several reasons, especially in light of things happening. So I figured I'd work on cosplays for my dog(s)! They already wear clothing for shits and giggles (and functional ones like coats).

Vet time! Lots of stuff happening.
She seems to be alright but we'll see.

Freshly bathed and well behaved. 😌
I really love my dog. She's the best...

SO THAT REMINDS ME LMAO

Feeling inspired today! :D

(but I am damned to wash my dog fml vet day for the old lady reee)

Jesus Christ this dog is cracking me up this morning
she ran out of the room like a roach

I shined the laser cat tiy under the door and my fat puppy slammed herself against the door.

It's nor funny.
It's fnot hilairod
Stloop laufhbr

Working on a tutorial I have no bubsiness doing.

Might work on getting a full-length mirror for assistance on poses.
Might have to lose some weight for it to be effective though. 😅

Testing out some things.

I don't know why I'm fighting so hard against my preferences.

I think when I improve on anatomy, I falter on posing. I need to do a little bit of both, maybe go back to planning out poses with the lasso fill tool even.

Probably.

All I can do is continue practicing and seeking out guidance and critique until I get to the point where I'm alright with things.

Not innovating per se, just juggling too much information at once. It's not groundbreaking. I am not an extremely profound artist and that's alright honestly.

I have to accept that some people are in a better place mentally than myself. I'm just going through some silly crap and that hinders.

No. I'm not that bad at drawing. Someone out there is likely worse in some way.

The thing is I am too harsh and don't use a lot of other artists to base my style on currently. Before, I *did*, hardly injecting anh of my own personality into my art. Now it might have too much.

Again, maybe I just suck at drawing. Bitterness. Hm.

-how much dedication he had to the craft all things considered. Living at the library, studying from life, instead of the internet as one's cheatsheet.

While making your job harder isn't the play (work smarter), it probably did affect other parts of the brain to have to go through such lengths.

You know you're spiraling if you're stuck wondering what your father would say about your life's choices years after he becomes irrelevant.

His art skill would've likely continued improving as mine had, so "I surprassed my father" means nothing here.

I'm also genuinely impressed by his tenacity-

Uguu it all just got more complicated... Back to the neurologist again. 🫠
Please for the love of everything be something they can identify.

Is that Rayne? 👀

Wouldn't be the first time. Plus I got fried so maybe that's to blame. Electral impulses going haywire, right? Frying a person might have those types of lost-lasting effects. Bjr I can't deny some of this predating the frying.

All of this is purely functional, too. Nothing is visible outside of exhibited symptoms. Like you can't even *test* for this shit.

Hell, maybe that explains why doctors are shifty on this diagnosis as a whole. 👀 They know it's their fault LOL

Was there a class action lawsuit for others in my position? (offspring of experimented-on soldier) Guess I know what I'm gonna spend today researching.

I really am curious if there was research done, what symptoms mice broods had after being administered the experimental drugs.

Were they like me?

I am glad to have a diagnosis, sure. The solutions aren't cures, just treatments, and I'd honestly prefer the clearer days, without there being any issues. Relapses make me feel like it's meaningless.

In a way, it explains so much, too!
I am lucky to be alive but goddamn LOL
MAKING ME WORK FOR IT