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It's such a struggle ugh

Very likely 😵‍💫

I've lost like 15 lbs since December

I think maybe my mom is right. I've just got too much to manage all the time.

There's also my emotional state regarding the world right now where everything that's not an immediate need or emergency feels like

Tossing a raindrop on a house fire?

I need some help from people who also work overtime almost every week, who have a young kid, and draw lol

When do you have time and energy to work on art

I have the desire. I have the work. I have the skill.

Just not the energy and not the time

I've been trying to find it for weeks

Please help keep my only parent i have left alive.

I have so many things I need help with.
My mom’s already over 40k in medical debt alone.
Just trying to get basic needs met food medical emergencies health housing.
Current needs
OD -$201 over med supplies
Car fixed $2909
Med copays $150-$350
Water bill $128 😭

Like. Sure, it's legal.

But it's definitely an awkward imbalance. You ain't got peers your age? 🫩

"ooo aliens aliens the government is releasing alien information" unless they're gonna final frontier us the fuck out of here idgaf

If I want to be jittery and wild I'd just skip my meds and eat fistfuls of sugar while hyper focusing on a new special interest of the week

The only addiction I have is to the lack of overstimulation while my toddler is doing every overstimulating thing she can think of while I'm trying to do shit as mentally intense and stressful as equal to the level of taxes lol

Or never remember to do it in the first place.

But seriously, if somebody really is taking this as a drug thing and not a prescription thing, of course they'd go through the extra steps because it's an addiction and that causes people to do just about anything to get it.

While ADHD people will /avoid the inconvenience extra task at all costs/

They don't do this with oxy I know that for sure.

What's me taking the extra step to tell them yes I actually want my prescription preventing though lol

Obviously every ADHD person is actually just lying of course

Because they won't approve it as a controlled substance, unlike a normal prescription where the doctor sends it in and they just let you know when it's ready because fuck mental health I guess

I'll have to call or go in person every time I get a refill and then wait for the refill but fuck it I guess lol

Oh my god I finally talked to a person lol

a man wearing a blue shirt that says pressed van ALT: a man wearing a blue shirt that says pressed van

"a team member will be with you shortly"

Right! Like "what do you mean you want to use the benefits you pay for you absolute plebian peasant scum?"

Unfortunately we're going back to them eventually, just have kaiser in the interim before benefits kick in 💀 I might stay on of they're better but, we shall see lol

TriCare was worse because they liked to act like "are you sure you need these? Are you REALLY sure? We're going to talk back and forth with your doctor to make sure they're really sure that you're sure"

Also my psychiatrist had no issue billing my new insurance for the appointment, so it's like... Theoretically it should work fine once it's done through their pharmacy at least once

Theoretically

Likely but with insurance its like $6-$16

Lol I guess not

Oh I can't even get into that process because it wants me to have the prescription number. I can't access prescription information without the prescription number. How would I find out the prescription number without accessing my prescription?

No information anywhere so I'm just on hold lol.

Have a colleague whose doctor pulled her off her meds because she was "done with school so she didn't need it anymore"

And that's why you get prescriptions from psychiatrists and not PCPs 💀

At this point it'd almost be easier to pay full price lmao

But yeesh