Aurora Kelly Cosplay

So here I am.. years later with a dead set of wicks a handful of skills and now officially a fire breather. I’m not often proud of myself but we’ve come quite far kid 🥹✨

So often I feel like we get caught in the rat race of it all that it feels like everyday is the same but when you look back everything has changed.

Having a physical manifestation of that being such a lie is so shocking in so many ways…

I got home today and I said out loud “you know what? I think I’m kinda cool…” to which D replied “yes you are”

I need to retire my first torches (or re-wick them) that was such a cute and bitter sweet realization 🥹 I have this problem where I never feel like I’m doing “enough” like no matter how hard I try I get nowhere.

Something I’ve learned thru deconstruction and unlearning comphet is that unfortunately both men and women will objectify you it’s just in different fonts….
men: 🥵💦she’s just a pretty face with tits🤤😍
women: 😒🙄she’s just a pretty face with tits🥱🤬

yeah because you live in a rich neighborhood where people are trading and getting rid of IPADS while in poor neighborhoods people are asking for baby formula and passing around clothes from their dead relatives it just 😤😡

Zone specific bartering and buy nothing groups are so freaking unethical and it makes me so angry but I have literally reached out to them and they’re just like “too bad so sad this is the more convenient way to do it”

It’s not realistic for an adult either.

Anyways I say all this because no. We don’t all have the same 24 hours. So please I’m begging you stop holding yourself to that standard. It’s damaging and severely unrealistic. Expecting myself to work 3 jobs go to school and send money home after paying my own bills was not realistic for a child.

For comparison it takes one trip to Walmart and one trip to a specialty store to procure the same ingredients in America. I paid for my college tuition in cash because I was paid in cash. I paid for my rent in cash. The rest would be sent via western union to my family.

Getting food for dinner was an arduous job that took about 3 months to procure everything for dinner and at least 2 weeks of cooking labor due to access and tools and hands available to help.

I remember working the hardest during holidays and going to the supermarket only to find that empty shelves and having to come to Christmas feeling empty handed, suffices to say we didn’t celebrate the holidays much growing up but my grandparents still did their best to set the mood.

“We all have the same 24 hours btw”
Is a phrase that used to penetrate my body like a knife and twist its way into my heart. I’ve been working since I was 8 years old to help myself and my family and not once has anything I’ve done ever felt like enough.

I’m so honored and excited to announce that I will be a content creator for DreamHack I can’t wait to see everyone!

Look who’s talking! 🥹 thanks bby! ♥️

I felt so freaking ethereal in this shoot 🥹

📸 by @/jcbargerphotographer

Ngl separating showbiz and my personal life is so necessary and healing I think my reluctance to do so is probably leftover workaholic tendencies and man is that part of me unhealthy for me 😅

I miss my nephews 🥹

Should I edit my Pride Vlog? Bleh

I love my fiancé with my whole heart but omfg living in a house this cold is for polar bears omfg 😩

I think it’s so weird how people will literally stalk you and then tell you like that’s normal behavior 👁️👄👁️

I feel like media ages with its viewers like I’m sorry but the only people consuming Sailor Moon content are 30+ year olds

I just found out Zoey Deschanel or however you spell it is a nepo baby 😒

Tomorrow I start fundraising for BurlyCon I’m anxious and scared but one nation already stole my dreams I won’t let another do the same again ♥️

The burlesque fans I want are $3k
The burlesque fans I can make that would make me happy are $300
The burlesque fans I made with love guidance and history are $30

We all start somewhere I’m putting this here so one day when I get those $3k fans I can look back and remember where it all started 🥹

I’m making the solid move to start using this at large scale I hope it’s worth it I can’t have my speech censored anymore it’s killing me from the inside I cannot do it any more

Whew I was about to go off on a tangent about how people conflate passion in bipoc with aggression like we’re only allowed to be happy and loving and anything else is seen as aggression and we are treated as such but that’s not a conversation yall are ready for.

The number of AI gen “models” on bsky continues to increase. Whenever one appears in my feed, I add it to this moderation list.

One of the dead giveaways, btw (aside from visual errors) is they always use one of the shady OF copycat sites that has lax content moderation.

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I miss dancehall joints in New York 😩 I miss proper perreos 😓 people in America have too much decorum for my liking or maybe I’m too used to the dance floor getting nasty 😔 may the get down & nasty gods hear my prayers 🥲