chaoticsleepy

esprit.☘

a lehenga + choli outfit and a draped saree!!! for all fem talls in YAB M. pls be respectful w this attire!!

Heliosphere - Trello

#hirunmods #xivmods #vanillacreatives

Porn is one of Humanity’s oldest forms of self expression, and should be celebrated rather than demonized.

-> never *truly* been in control of their destiny, and both find comfort in each other's presence because they know the other has gone through (more or less) the same shit. there's a wordless, silent understanding between them. and then there's the healer/fighter & butch/femme dynamics.

#almondlore

anri and elle have the classic vampire x vampire hunter (well, nightkin x voidhunter) deal going. both are huntresses in their own right & in their own way, fundamentally different from one another and yet directly intertwined. both are (more or less) alone in the world, both have ->

#almondlore

a woman is holding a brown dog with its mouth wide open ALT: a woman is holding a brown dog with its mouth wide open

BARK BARK BARK WOOF RRRRRUFF

this is part of an old comic but ended up going unused, and i realized i never actually posted it. or at least i'm pretty sure i never did. so... :3

#almondnsfw

slay the chirurgeon.

2/2
#almondcomic
ft. @chaoticsleepy.bsky.social

slay the chirurgeon.

1/2
#almondcomic
ft. @chaoticsleepy.bsky.social

Did I mention that I spent the last 10 minutes of server up-time taking a couple of gratuitous, indulgent screenshots of Elle?

Seeing those pants, though.. Can you blame me?

god DAMN who gave you the right to have ALL THAT, ma'am.

#ffxiv #gposers

hello bsky, happy beanmas to u all

and by beanmas, i mean, weenie bean's 4th birthday.

a painting of a man lifting a sylveon by the armpits

Long, firm, tubular body, DEEP blue eyes, really wonderful expression. he is so calm, confident, really in charge here. Big, bouncy ears, perfectly set, a slender, whippy tail, and of course, those smooth, vibrant ribbons. Best in show.

And you’re not used to being loved. You’re used to people being attached to you. Or being fond of you. Or depending on you. Not loving you, not really. So I think it doesn’t occur to you that it’s something that might actually happen.

A vampire doing absolutely normal edgy vampire things
[OC: Louis]

CW: Blood, Edgy Boy
#oc #owncharacter #vampire #art #sketch #vanitasarts

oops, elle forgot to take her on walkies.

every day I am more secure in my decision not to argue with people on the internet anymore

Light is the left hand of darkness
and darkness the right hand of light.
Two are one, life and death, lying
together like lovers in kemmer,
like hands joined together,
like the end and the way.

All words were sorcery. If enough people believed in words, in a language or a treaty or an Antler Stone, then the words could change the whole world. Faster and further than fire.

the party that wants to require ID to vote abruptly invalidating a thousand people’s IDs overnight seems like a pretty giant flashing red light

Why find RP partners in a shitty AI slop app when you can find them by mutually dancing around one another on socmed for months, ringing your jester bells to get the other's attention until one of you works up the balls to approach to smash your OCs together like a milk sodden webkinz and a wall

i am a regular guy and can post mods online:

magpie // a vanilla dress mashup for fem talls
hsp.re/m/4c5y3cp2q9...

#xivmods #ffxivmods

tl;dr? recent events kicked the lid off of elle's personal pandora's box of existential crises and deep-seated insecurities and so ya girl just ain't gonna be sleeping for the foreseeable future until she manages to wrestle those demons back into their box or into submission, either one.

But the idea of Elle hurting someone she loves? It cuts deep, especially knowing there's still a part of her that doesn't *want* to deny herself. That even if she knows she'll only hurt them in the end, she still craves that bond and connection - even if it IS cruelly, horridly selfish of her.

If it was just herself she had to worry about hurting, it would be one thing. If the only collateral damage were the faceless, hypothetical 'others'.. she'd have a harder time swallowing it, but it would be easier to compartmentalize.

It's the sinking realization that the deep, abiding emotional intimacy that she craves, Elle cannot allow herself to have without subjecting those she cares about to the unknown, unpredictable, potentially even *dangerous* questions that come with the territory of letting her into their lives.

It's already uncomfortable for Elle to think about when it's only the *personal* impact she's considering.

It's frightening when she's considering all the potential future scenarios in which she may be putting faceless, hypothetical 'others' at risk.

But what truly keeps her up at night..?

Presently?

It's having a stare down the barrel of the uncomfortable truth that she has no concept of what her future will entail, given her whole wibbly-wobbly extracorporeal.. situation.

Worse, it's the acknowledgement that there's a real possibility that there *is* no future for her. Period.

Love it when I come across a monsterfucker post and someone's like "This is CRAZY, that dick is too BIG, it'd go up into your LUNGS" like wow, you figured out sexual fantasies about being railed by a mythical creature are unrealistic? Nothing gets by you, does it, detective?

sometimes self care is putting a fictional character through unspeakable horrors

Eventually though, the right person will take her home. They'll suspect that she's not the average dog - and find out that there is, in fact, a significant amount of wolf in her. They'll still love her anyway.

And that person will never have a more happy, loving, loyal dog in their entire lives.

..friendly, affectionate pup at the shelter. It'll likely see her returned time and time again by would-be adopters who are frightened by that aggression - though it was never and *would* never be turned upon *them*. Each time she goes back, that big fluffy tail wags just a little bit slower..