Ash 🪻

also sorry this is my alt lol 💀

Love you bestie 🥺🤍

yall I lowkey feel so pathetic sometimes like… I hate that I wanna be a in a relationship but I do. I wanna love and be loved. I wanna feel a connection :/

So glad I wasn’t apart of my old friend group while I was going through my intense health anxiety…
they would’ve hit me with the “oh sorry about your health anxiety and feeling like you’re gonna die everyday but you really aren’t prioritizing us and fortnite :/“

Like? Why’d I let my ex bully me for years about not being comfortable having sex yet?

He literally had his friends call me to pressure me into having sex with him? Of course I was a stupid 16 year old and thought “oh silly guys 😌” and now I look back and I’m like… wtf?

yall ever just in a mood where you analyze everyone that’s ever done you wrong?

If there’s one thing that’s for certain, I believe in karma and I know karma will continue to bite them in the ass time and time again :)

I don’t think I’m ever gonna understand people that will so openly lie about others. I’m so glad i’m in a better place mentally so I’m not on my petty shit 🧘🏻‍♀️

Update: I cried :) feeling better

and yeah sure… I’ll get a job and meet people there but who’s to say they’ll even wanna be my friend? How will i ever get a boyfriend? how will I ever make friends now that my chance is up :(

I’m so lost

and now that my mental health is more in check it now just the loneliness that consumes me. I feel like I only have 3-4 real friends but they’re all so distant and not here.

I just can’t help but feel like I blew it. I spent all the years in college I should’ve been making friends and instead I spent it being so overly depressed and anxious. I’d hole myself alone in my room because I didn’t feel like I was worthy of other people’s attention

I wish I could cry but I can’t :(

🥺🤍

🥺🤍 thank you so much!

Lowkey might steal this layout one day for my main. I love the purple magical vibes.

Just kinda want a hug 🫂

Thank you 🫂 that means a lot.

Lately i’ve been feeling very ostracized and weird :/

I thought the feeling would go away with my anxiety and tbh it’s definitely better but days like this I can’t help
but feel like I’ll never belong in any space.