v buckenham

sometimes I'm also attracted to things that appal me

A third of the way through the Anachronox demo, the player encounters a hulking alien merchant. “My sorrow runs deep,” the merchant, whose name is Demonstrare, says. “I will only exist for the short duration of this demo. I do not exist in the full version. “Write the company. Tell them that you want me in the full version.” What Demonstrare, even with his curse of self-awareness, did not anticipate was that if anyone did ask Ion Storm to bring him over to “the full version,” it wouldn’t have mattered. The demo shipped on a disc stuck to the cover of a PC Gamer — where it shared space with now-forgotten

titles like Throne of Darkness and The Corporate Machine — four months after Anachronox itself had been released, and three months after Ion Storm’s parent company had shut down the studio. Demonstrare never made it to Anachronox. And while twenty-five years later the game can run on modern hardware, the demo does not. Demonstrare is gone. Recently, I asked Richard Gaubert, the writer of Anachronox, if the developers ever heard anything about Demonstrare. Gaubert didn’t even remember the character.

Here is a little bit of @duncanfyfe.net's afterword for "How Can We Bear to Throw Anything Away?"

jack & @jack •• • In principle, I don't believe anyone should own or run Twitter. It wants to be a public good at a protocol level, not a company. Solving for the problem of it being a company however, Elon is the singular solution I trust. I trust his mission to extend the light of consciousness. 10:03 PM • Apr 25, 2022

nobody else is ever going to attain this combination of visionary genius and stepping on your own dick in a single reply tweet

let's not fucking GOOOOOO

it's good! manages to be funny and also make you care about the characters/the mystery

did you see Deadloch? similar vibes of comedy/murder mystery swirling together

Return of the Sausage I am delighted to announce that I will be showing my silly game about sausages and bluffing as part of the second Car Boot Casino at the V&A Late on the 27th of March. I do still have on my todo list...

I'm going to be showing my boardgame about sausages at the V&A on the 27th! blog.vbuckenham.com/return-of-th...

i enjoyed it (tho agree it wasn't doing anything interesting musically) but also my takeaway was very much... well you both seem like terrible people here

it's an encouraging thing when I think about doing new forms of fitness, that it is something that will permanently build capacity, even if I let it drop for a while

and then I did it again, and it came back much easier. and then I had years of chronic ill health, I avoided all exercise to avoid crashing, I started on estrogen and got weaker as a result. and then I did couch to 5k again... still much easier to get that fitness back than to build it initially

I'm not saying it's the same, but I have found it joyful the way that the first time I did couch to 5k it was a struggle and I felt every increment of fitness as struggle. and then I stopped running.

looking at the tits I've grown like

I should replay Fjords. Or make a lot of weird little guys and play some of Kyle's fairy games.

thank you 🫡

also I read this to the tune of Dark Souls "Enemy Felled"

you did it!!!!

just finishing up lunch... at a nice restaurant... sitting outside the restaurant... without a jacket on. I can't believe it. this is spring??

Book cover for Carmilla by Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu. The cover depicts Carmilla leaning her head against Laura's while she embraces her, Laura doesn't shy away from Carmillas touch but seems shy to reciprocate. They're framed by a red pointed arch, a devil and an angel and some baroque ornaments.

A crop.

Carmilla 🩸🖤

seems like he has two films languishing in post-production??

ah, thank you! yes those three in that order sounds correct. i don't feel like i need these to be well behaved at all

the only one i know is the fighter jets one - 3
but that's from watching that one clip of one crashing, i've not been paying close attention

recommendations welcome for which to watch next!

imagining this alien as David Bowie in The Man Who Fell to Earth. which is probably too beautiful for the intended effect.

purchased this

I did not find it upsetting, I was having a lovely time (except for that one bit where they have to get in the truck)

A review of The Cook, the Thief, His Wife & Her Lover (1989) This review may contain spoilers. Visit the page to bypass this warning and read the review.

saw The Cook, The Thief, His Wife & Her Lover last night, and, in short: wow

(in long: letterboxd.com/vtwentyone/f...)

currently reorganising my sock drawer

I think about this Tony Benn speech much more than I used to

rat chaos (2012)

when I get sad and frustrated with future predictions of #ai bros online, I go back and watch this doc again