This account honestly became nothing but a vent account for coping with my depression and things are honestly really amazing rn
I have hope and have met someone truly special
Going to focus on myself and people I hold close and leave this account behind, hopefully forever
take care!
-Eve <3
I really hope I can move out this year
maybe got a little sad yesterday but this year will be a good one, i just know it <3
Even with the nervous breakdown and being an overall emotional wreck I've still made some amazing friends overall the last couple years <3
my breakdown was not me :(
please don't block and unfriend people who are going through a mental breakdown
it is the cruelest thing anyone has ever done to me, not only have i had to recover from nearly not being here anymore, ive had to recover from losing close friends
if it wasnt for a different friend, i may not be here
i was searching for an old screenshot to share with a friend and saw different screenshots that triggered a bunch of traumatic memories
idk if ill ever be able to look at old memories from last year ever again, too painful
2025 was the worst year of my life
This is the longest Ive gone since late May without any serious breakdowns and crying fits. Ive made it around a month and Im so grateful that Ive been healing <3
The reality is life is hard. I’m struggling to do the best with what I have. My struggles have caused me immense distress but Im trying the best I can
Just because I lost friends doesn’t mean I have to give up
I have a list of employers and options. Now I need to lock in and score some interviews.
I love all genders🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
Because I have no gender.
Especially right now, transgender people are living with a lot of anxiety.
Why are transgender people not allowed to freely love the people they want to love?
Why can't transgender individuals live their lives with the soul they prefer?
someone literally just had to mention the name of a friend I lost (without knowing ofc) and I started crying and had to apologize to them in VC thinking about how I lost my mind, its insane how traumatic summer was for me :(
just found out i still qualify for assistance with health insurance even though i made a bit more money last year, just under the limitttt
i was super worried
Today marks two years of being Eve!!
Despite struggles Im so happy Ive been so brave :3
I went from being hollow and nearly friendless to meeting amazing people and really turning life around
Many more years ahead 🩷🩷🩷 🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️
Saw Iron Lung last night! i enjoyed it *nod nod*
also popcorn is good…..
im having a lot of fun lately!! feel like my old self again when vibing with people,
im still really struggling when alone but its getting easier to exist again
i wish i lived somewhere where i could get another cat, i think im ready to have one mentally but alas i need to moveeee
really glad im out as trans to two people in my area now, they’re both cool! i wish i had more supportive people in my irl circle though :(
big thank you for to My amazing supportive online friends who have really helped keep me going by just being there and chatting :3
It's BS you need to love yourself first.
Even if you hate yourself now, love them fully and fearlessly🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
I want a world where someday you'll love yourself
and live proud, just as you are
maybe can go see a miku concert this year with friend/friends, would be fun :3
I hate my day to day so when many stressful things kept happening repeatedly it made me feel hopeless
this does not mean I am weak or hopeless
Im strong because I made it through despite losing friends and giving up on family.
I will do everything in my power to move away from family this year.
been really unisolating lately which is really helping with being sad about ruining friendships, only have been sad about old friends while drunk the past 4 days or so
lost friends for being sad and depressed like how do i stop thinking about it when all i had to do was not be sad
i miss the friends i lost, all three of them :(
it shouldn’t be this way, its so easy to just treat people like people
my own parents can’t even treat me like a human, its fucking insane
im sick of all the bullshit, its so depressing
I hate being trans, life was already shit and now with the way everything is going it’s only getting harder people to be themselves.
I hate how often i breakdown because of transphobic shit, i hate that the anxiety of it all has cost me friends and joy
i want to curl up in a ball and disappear
i feel like shit 24/7 and just hide it by being “silly”
cant do anything but distract myself anymore, i want to move but cant get myself to figure it out
i think its hopeless, probably another year where im stuck
i quit therapy right around june after my cat passed away because she asked me if i had any thoughts that would warrant contacting my emergency contact and then i lied to everyone and said i was still in it
definitely another thing i could have done differently to not fall apart…
feel so guilty
i hate that i cant be me at home
i want to move so fucking bad, ill have one foot into another nervous breakdown until i can move
like im tearing up at least once every day thinking about how shitty my life is and how its robbed me of friends and passion
