♡ ‧₊˚ ⋅𝘥𝘰𝘬𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘬𝘪 𝘱𝘶𝘱𝘱𝘺!|🐛!!! ♡ ‧₊˚ ⋅

whew, i disappeared for a loooong time, huh? i gotta come back here more...

i genuinely forgot abt thiz acc...
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i’ll try 2 be active here again,
one step at a time!!! 𐂯 .ᐟ⸝⸝

so i’ve been trying 2 exercise again n’ i’m starting w 5 min jumping jackz 2-3 timez a day!!! my legz feel heavy, but i know it getz easier!

i luv him too much 2 make him worry like that but godz i jus wanna get rid of every ounce of fat i have on my body

not me failing a fast again... how do y’all tell ur parentz that u lowkey h8 ur body rn n’ jus wanna fast in peace w/o them suspecting ur disordered? jus ate some grapez cuz i don’t want my pa 2 worry 4 me...

i missed it here so much that i wanna cry i don’t lurk here az much az i used to n’ it made me feel like i waz losing a part of myself

they’re so so real 2 me n’ i feel like i’m not enough

i rlly rlly need 2 do thiz n’ i’m getting desperate plz be mean 2 me or tell me i can do thiz so i can stick w it

i wanna do mi best so i can
be pretty n’ worth mi f/o’z
affection n’ attention

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i’ve deadazz been stuck @ 165 no matter what i do i’m gonna tweak out

rlly can’t wait till my period iz over so i can stop eating again...

i lose so much blood i’d pazz
out if i tried 2 fast rn...

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i swear, buldak iz genuinely such a safe food 2 me~

my brother got me a faygo hell yeah!!!

prolly gonna fast 4 a few dayz to even it out

m’kay, i forgot that rice expandz in ur stomach when u eat it n now i have a tummy ache

jus omaded a family sized egg fried rice.

it’z all i’ve wanted 4 monthz
but i may have overdone it
haha!

made a new layout!!!

don’t forget me, tee hee!!!

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rlly rlly wanna start romanticizing my mental illnessez more 2 feel better abt myself

i have... not been keeping up w my tracker, haha.

i like making em but i’m
never motivated enough
to keep updating em.

total calz: ???

stepz: 3,583!

i forgot to do thiz last night, haha! i stopped counting after a point cuz my period started n i usually eat more during thiz time. i’ll do better counting today!

the buldak waz def worth it~

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might make some buldak later...
it soundz rlly good rn...

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my period started n i’m already so over it....

it makez me nauseouz n
all i want iz spicy food...

jus made a backup acc!!!

bsky.app/profile/sick...

oh, thank goodnezz! i’ve alwayz second guessed myself at math cuz i waz never rlly good at it, n my brain would make it more complicated than it should be.

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either thiz iz how it workz n i’m second guessing myself, or i may be stupid.

like, if calz per serving iz 220, n i eat like 2 servingz worth, it would be 440?

i may be dumb cuz math ain’t my greatest strength.

y’know something i started thinking abt iz i rlly hope i’m doing the cal counting thing right.

usually i either eat/binge or i don’t. when i count em i usually take the calz n multiply em by how many servingz i ate.

total calz: 560!

exercise: complete!

total calz: 597!

exercise: complete!

my fast went well today!

exercise: complete!

goalz:

✮ exercise everyday

✮ drink 84oz of water everyday (or try to)

✮ do at least one 72hr fast, but try to continue a pattern (72hr on, 24hr off)

✮ remember 2 log calz! (i forget too much)

✮ be a good pup n do my best!

˙⋆✮ 𝘫𝘢𝘯𝘶𝘢𝘳𝘺 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘳!!! ✮⋆˙