given the situation with my mom, i'm going to post my ko-fi for any help people might be willing to spare. everything'll just be used for gas to visit her and food. i've been selling my plasma to make up for rent/bills but i'm still pretty fucked after spending $6k to move. ko-fi.com/lalafellin
she's so cute... paradise pls move in with me and never leave
i frew up. 😞
went to sell my plasma today and they used my other arm cus of a slight bruise on my normal donating arm.. tell me why i left dizzy and nauseous with a pounding headache 😞
cus he looks good, next question [nods]
i wish i could individually thank every person that's donated to me so far. i wish i could explain the amount of tears i cried when i woke up this morning
i know it's fucking awful to come back to this account just to ask for help, but i'm so desperate. i'm not above begging. i have no shame left to swallow at this point. please, even if you can't help, just a rt is more than enough.
i managed to scrape together the funds to pay march's rent, but i can't do anything else. our internet is due, our power is due, my (secured) credit card is due, and i have to pay $150 for fingerprinting and certifications for my student teaching internship next semester by may.
i can't find enjoyment in anything anymore. i wake up, i help my mom with her hemodialysis, i go to class, i do my assignments, i come home, and i go to sleep. all i can think about is if i should drop out of school and work at a grocery store or something.
i've had to cancel medications that i can't afford anymore. i've sold all but one of my game consoles, figures, anything i didn't have an extreme attachment towards. i've gone to food pantries because we can't afford groceries. i've been left on read by extended family members.
neither of my parents are working right now; mom for obvious reasons, and dad because he's out on worker's comp for an accident from last year. i only just yesterday convinced him to sign up as an uber driver/delivery guy. we have so many bills due and i have nothing to give.
i calmed my dad and sister down, cleaned up the blood, and cried myself into a nap. i'm at my wit's end. i cannot work while attending school because i'm in the tail end of my degree and my classes are all over the place on every day of the week, with assignments out my ass.
yesterday, while doing a hemodialysis treatment, my mother's entire chest port came out (img). while she wasn't in pain, she and my dad (understandably) freaked the fuck out, because there was blood pouring from her chest. i managed to slow the flow while the ambulance came.
i had to extend our uhaul truck a week past what we thought we'd need it for because i'm not the powerhouse i like to imagine i am during my pre-bedtime daydreams, which cost even more than i had budgeted. we were finally all set by the third week of feb, or so i thought.
because of my parents low credit (and my lack of it), we had to pay an absurd amount in a security deposit, and so we couldn't hire movers. my dad is fragile, which meant i more or less had to move the entirety of our house by myself, all while going to classes.
while this was all ongoing, my mom went into the hospital twice, first for extremely low hemoglobin and the second for a broken ankle after falling when they sent her home too early the first time. i got my tax refund only to use it for more of the apartment and gas to see her.
on christmas eve, my family was told by our previous landlords that our lease wasn't being renewed, and we had to move out by feb 1st. i used the entirety of my student loan refund, $6000, to get us into an apartment that could accomodate the date and my mom's disability
i'm going to copy from my twt thread for those who don't have context here, since i realize there's no real information unless you click to my profile.
got hit w/ an unexpected $300 bill so i'm gonna open xiv comms :') i'd love to do chibi/headshot stickers for fanfest, but is there anything else you'd want from me?? any input appreciated 🙏🩷
i'm not sure if anyone still uses the other hellsite, but my desperation has led me to places i wouldn't even go with a gun. if you still use it, and could rt this thread, i'd appreciate it a lot.
x.com/lalafeIl/sta...
i miss peppermint. i hope 8.0 revives my love for xiv.. although i think a lot of the reason i'm not really doing much other than raidlogging is just because i'm stressed. i can't find enjoyment in anything anymore and it kinda sucks.
given the situation with my mom, i'm going to post my ko-fi for any help people might be willing to spare. everything'll just be used for gas to visit her and food. i've been selling my plasma to make up for rent/bills but i'm still pretty fucked after spending $6k to move. ko-fi.com/lalafellin
thank you qq i'm so tired, lmao.. i wanna go back to when my biggest problems were nap time and coloring inside the lines of a coloring book.
my mom's entire hemodialysis port just came out while she was doing a treatment.
upside: the ambulance guys were cute. downside: my mom is back on her way to the hospital, there was enough blood to look like i was crime scene cleaner, and i am stressed out of my fucking mind. my hair is falling out.
happy women's month! make sure you send a woman you love $100
i am!! i restarted my farm because it'd been so long since i played, i remembered nothing dosfuhsdfk
im sorry.......
realizing that fanfest is dangerously close and we'll learn about the new expansion soon.... i'm excited........
