Kurt Jax

The pup who can do that in my pantry gets not just a lock but a ring.

Your body au naturel is beautiful puppy.

Yo telegram, remember tumblr’s porn ban? Didn’t end well for them

I feel like I’m some kind of deluded asshole or traitor to everyone I know bucking trends by seeing the beginnings of the light at the end of the tunnel for all this….EVERYTHING.

But I see it, and dammit I’m gonna hold onto that sliver of a new dawn for the world despite seeming crazy. Worth it.

This is the dream

I am moving, halfway through my WeHo drag gauntlet, and nursing a cold. I am so ded.

Friends, if you’re going to LVFC or live in the Bay Area. Tell me what you’re excited to do with me there. Daddy Lion needs a pick me up to help my fried brain & body.

What would be the tech version of Historiography or art theory where an authors fingerprints are all over it? Seems to be something people cannot wrap their heads around

Fucking woof dude!

I am officially the adult version of that kid a bit TOO into the puffy fabric paint. But damn if it doesn’t really cause a glow up when done right.

Seeing my improving skills with sewing makes me very happy.

…..I’m filing this information away about you for when I see you in about a month.

That’s a very good girl.

New place is pretty cool. Got my keys, now to move boxes and furniture the next two weeks

Careful, you’ll get me excited too!

Oversaturation maybe? Sometimes when a kink goes too hard or there’s so much of it as the current “in thing” it can start to feel intrusive.

It’s a lot like a fandom when you think of it, just as horny after all. XD

New place has:

A garage I can turn into a workshop for stuff

Living by myself make my new bedroom conducive to filming smut

Super close to the easiest highways in la & 30 minutes from LAX

Live near my fellow folks in the “unemployed/unappreciated” queer people track.

Recipe for growth.

Gonna try to use my move as a reset. I’ve got a great opportunity to leave a lot of festering wounds and scars behind with it. We’ll see if it takes this time.

If the person making Kurt works out I’ll let ya know.

Or a lion tongue?

My therapist actually gave me a drag centric way to look at this that really helped. How would my drag king persona talk to my normal self about it like a dialogue in my head. Helps me remember if I’d be kind to someone else for the same stuff why am I mean when it’s me?

Why have I wasted so much energy on people and places that I wanted desperately to love me but never loved me back/gave up on me?

It coincides with the places in the area I go where I’m loved becoming LA & West Hollywood rather than Long Beach now, but the people are there. My best friends live near there.

Well. I’m moving to Long Beach finally.

I actually dare AI to apply cultural anthropology or historiography problems. They are literally disciplines that run on re-examining everything that’s supposedly a fact.

Which you’d think STEM would remember cuz that IS the scientific method no matter if you don’t like the outcome!

I think about my time with ethnographic study in terms of info AI cannot replicate. It is a scientific method process but requires applying philosophical concepts, outsider perspective, & analytics not made in numbers.

Ai cannot apply Geertz’s symbols of culture or Boas’s historical particularism

…..I kinda wanna see you do it again

In a sense I do. Dm me.

Hey I love me some sexytimes with friends but if we’ve got nothing to chat about when the junk isn’t out I got better things to do.

And I can’t just be horny 24/7. Make stupid decisions & jokes with me while im recovering! Thats the real money shot!

Just the symbolic gesture of pulling one of the people I’ve chosen to be close to into a giant hug knowing they see me and will let me ground myself did so much

Saw the person I’m incredibly smitten with for the first time since I returned from my horrible Xmas trip where they were there for that awful Xmas eve. Held them so tight and I swear I almost cried.

didn’t realize how much I just needed to hold onto somebody who was there during that shit year.

Oh, could it be? Could I be creating a certain lion’s head for a debut at LVFC?