marlo

expectation of bliss —
acrylic on canvas

i was thinking about another angle, but this is an interesting perspective too. it’s sad to think about what the world would be like if women were taught to be leaders and men were taught to look up to them. not sure things would run on war and exploitation quite so much 😅

i hope my experiences can be useful for people who are forced to transition from regular work to something more self-directed and creative

i understand how scary instability like this can be, but it can also be very exciting

it sounds insane, but i’ve found it to be far more effective (and fun) than doing what i “should”

the future feels incredibly wild and unpredictable at the moment, but i feel like i was made for times like these

AI will force many people out of stable careers, and there’s no telling yet what the future of employment will look like

early on in life, health issues forced me out of a stable career as well, and i’ve been making a living for most of my adult life by essentially just doing whatever i feel like

🆗 see you in like 7 hours

vegan chilli!

i’ll give you three guesses

hating and scrutinizing an obvious villain is way more fun than looking at your own toxic behaviour

in retrospect, maybe teaching girls to be quiet, deferential, and submissive was a bad idea

not letting people continue to cause you harm isn’t the same as harming them, regardless of how they may feel about it. these are very reasonable consequences

there are two sides to every dynamic and you can’t just put all the responsibility on the other person to stop being toxic. you have to do the work to change every aspect of the relationship you have power over, or end things

healthy anger is a wakeup call to get those things done

if i keep taking crap from people, who truly benefits in the long run? what example do i set? what toxic patterns am i feeding? what kind of affect does this have on the world in general? it’s all terrible

i often feel incredibly guilty when standing up for myself or protecting my own wellbeing. but it helps when i look at situations more holistically

where can i do better to validate my own painful experiences and recognize that someone really was out of line? where do i need to stop taking shit? what new boundaries do i need to set? where do i need to do better for myself?

feeling pretty angry these days

an important part of healing is to learn what to do with your anger. to learn how to stop repressing it or taking it out on people, and to use it for positive change instead

when my anger is at specific people, i start by using it to find more compassion for myself

yes, it’s absolutely wild

🤣 oh hi

just came here to post something on this actually. what helped me to stop feeling like a failure so i can release it

i appreciate your perspective 🤍

oof. yeah, it’s tough breaking out of patterns like this. we adapt them to feel safe, and people don’t really complain, so we keep it up

i started looking at society like a toxic relative and it is helping a lot. do i choose myself or this narcissistic asshole who is never happy 🤣

epiphany of the day

you’re not a failure, you were just conditioned to devote your life to pleasing someone who is incapable of being happy. it felt like a requirement of staying safe

• feeling guilt if i focus on myself
• taking on the shame of perpetrators
• trying not to look too happy so i’m not a target
• etc

currently taking some time to reset and build healthier, more helpful habits, but not sure what they’ll look like yet

would love to hear yours if you have them ❤️

i recently realized that i was engaging with the world within the same toxic frameworks i adopted to survive abuse

some examples:

• hypervigilance around staying informed
• feeling responsibility for everyone’s emotions
• needing to read the mood of the whole world/internet before posting

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purification —

acrylic on canvas

the nature of compassion —
acrylic on canvas

one of my favourites 🤍

no, you are correct! the faint ones are drawn on the back of the canvas

awakening (study) —
acrylic and graphite on canvas

this work is about reconnecting with your inner knowingness to level up your perception

how many circles do you see?

thank you

fill your own well

winter roses