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PSA for everyone who sells something, literally or metaphorically, online.
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So Elgato's pushing their Wave Link 3 now and their only option for noise cancellation, Voice Focus, is AI slop and works like shit. It will, for no particular reason, boost your gain and fuck up your voice a lil. That, and/or do virtually nothing.

Thanks for the slopware I guess. Woo, more slop...

I feel like this little piece of cursed art @erismothfire.bsky.social made for me really embodies how that made me feel.

Yeah, I'm just moving to a new one 😔

Yeah I was saying how tough it is for me to be at work and he was like "Yeah but have you tried socializing more? Maybe tinder?" like bro are you listening that's my problem, it's too much, I don't want to be around people as much as I am 😭

So my new Psychiatrist today basically told me to just be normal instead. Anyway I'm looking for a new doctor.

Following up on this, I realized I'm a LOT happier working remotely, and I don't feel the anxiety/stress building like I normally do that leads to burnouts. So I asked my bosses (I have a few) about how to request going mostly remote. They were super understanding and are helping me navigate it now.

Thanks Kero! I’m just taking it one step at a time, already talking to a psych so it’s just gonna be a process. But yeah I could never have expected it’d lead me here, but I’m thankful!

It's not that I don't care, I just can't tell or show you I do. So, to all of you, thank you, for being my friend, for understanding, for putting up with me at times, and for supporting me throughout all of this. I couldn't be more thankful.

That's the end of the thread, thanks for reading 💜

I'm not sure what I did to deserve such kind and loving people in my life. But I do love you all, even if I struggle to express it. Even the ones I don't talk to a lot, I think about far more people than I actually have the energy to talk to, and I spend that energy I've got every single day trying.

My friends and community have supported me every step of the way on this journey I've been on since starting VTubing. You'd think it would've been about something else, but it's been about self-discovery more than anything else.

I've already spent nearly 30 trying to find a way to be happy, to want to be here tomorrow, and now I know what it is. So I'm gonna get it one way or another. Now to get to the actual point of this thread, the reason I wrote it, and what I think you should take away from this.

I feel very strongly that I can't continue like I did for the last few years for the rest of my life, something would have to change or I wouldn't be able to go on living like that. It feels dramatic, but knowing what this feels like now, I can't do it for 30 more years.

is from knowing that I return in about a week or so. I've spent my entire life with sleep problems, depression, and anxiety. 2 of those 3 eliminated by just being home to self-regulate as I want with no social pressures, that is unheard of for me.

Anyway, I realized all of this recently after about 3 months of working remote due to some medical issues that popped up and kept me out. I've worked less too, but I'm still meeting all the expectations placed on me. I've never been happier, and the only depression I feel currently

For some mid-thread comic relief, my friends I've known the longest responded to my test results with "Yeah of course" and like, I dunno, you coulda told me guys lol. I probably wouldn't have listened though, so I don't blame them at all.

My major concern there is that yeah, I've succeeded in life, but I'm utterly miserable normally. So like, how do you judge that when diagnosing? I'm really hoping it doesn't get in the way of an accurate diagnosis and treatment.

What confounds this is that, not trying to toot my own horn here, but I'm quite intelligent. I can find other ways to make up for my social deficiencies, and my intelligence seems to provide me some leeway socially. Smart people are just accepted as "weird" it seems? How frustrating.

The difficulty I find is that I'm still trying to figure out how much of my behavior is things I've learned to do to mask how I really think or feel to be accepted, compared to how I actually would be if I fully relaxed, decompressed, and just existed as my authentic self.

Now, I'm not self-diagnosing here, but I did take a self-evaluation to try and get some direction, and it pushed me to see a psych for a proper assessment and diagnosis, I'm in that process now. The self-assessment I took was the RAADS-R, and these are the results I got.

time ago, they've known for awhile now that if I answer the phone, that means I care and I'm not sick of you yet. I don't like "people", they even got me a shirt that said so. They accepted me long before I realized how accurate it was.

And trust me, if they did they would've helped, I love my family and they've always cared even if I can't reciprocate it the way I feel I should. But now I'm realizing that's not a fair expectation to put on myself. I just show it differently. I think they accepted that a long

I'm still unpacking how much I've been lying to myself, how little I've paid attention to myself in spite of grappling with the depression and anxiety that results from it, but I was always in so deep that I couldn't see it, and I guess nobody else could see through it.

Lately I've been dealing with the reality that there's probably something more than just depression going on with me neurologically, like, ADHD/Autism kind of "something else." I've been a shut book for most of my life, emotionally speaking, I've been masking since I was a small child. (long thread)

Experimenting is a big part of the experience #warthunder #vtuber #gaming #vtuberclips YouTube video by Taylsor

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Hey everyone reminder to DO YOUR TAXES! Sooner the better.

My only financial advice, as someone who works around taxes, is to keep good records and go to a tax professional if you have any doubts at all. Play it safe, the tax people don’t mess around.

You ever just have a nightmare where, under the right esoteric circumstances, you can, in a sense, perceive some concept of the face of an apathetic all-consuming God that exists right behind us in time? And its face is a misshapen mess of shapes?

No? Just me? Guess I didn’t need to sleep tonight…

You ever just have a nightmare where, under the right esoteric circumstances, you can, in a sense, perceive some concept of the face of an apathetic all-consuming God that exists right behind us in time? And its face is a misshapen mess of shapes?

No? Just me? Guess I didn’t need to sleep tonight…

Weekly schedule for Taylsor from February 16th to February 22nd. Features Yakuza 0 on Tuesday and Sunday and Fortnite on Friday. All streams are from 7pm to 10pm US Eastern time.

Schedule for the coming week, Friday is a collab with @fooljuice.bsky.social and potentially some other cool people!

For anyone wondering "Who are you to say my web design is lacking?" Well, I work on web pages that impact millions and go through a lot of review to make sure they don't suck. So I think I'm at least qualified enough to say these issues matter and a lot of you could improve.