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Plastic plants are .. a barometer of how divorced from reality we have become.

Anyone can become disabled at any time.

Your life can change in an instant, no matter how strong and healthy you think you are.

People will leave you. Funds will dry up. Life will get tougher.

It’s not a moral failing.

It’s a minority group you can join anytime.

I love the word dolorous, for what it’s worth.
I’m calmer now and reading Kathleen Jamie’s Sightlines but my eyes are now tired so I shall attempt some sleep. What’s that line about wanting to dream? I’d love some psychedelic escapism please.

Simple painting of a graveyard in summer

Found myself in a state of lachrymose terror over losing loved ones. Ears ringing, nose swollen, eyes raw, I’ve been sobbing into my pillow in anticipatory grief, missing the feller, missing my Son. I know because I’m a counsellor why it is. Still incredibly hard to manage. Had a cup of milk.

Anyway, don’t mind me, I’ve been writing existential poetry, listening to marimba music and missing the feller like mad.

“You gotta earn respect” sayers.. are essentially applying their moral preferences and deciding people who express alternative preferences are worth disrespect. I suppose it’s a way of introducing shame/condemnation & effort to establish dominant ideology. “If you disagree (with me) you’re wrong.”

Because I can’t even, with some people. Respect for autonomy, dignity, difference (even when I’m not on board) is the practice of open minded tolerance. There are limits & boundaries of course.

I just NEVER EVER think I can disrespect someone until they impress me somehow & then I’ll throw crumbs.

Do you believe that demonstration of respect to other human beings is based on the innate dignity of every individual

.. or do you believe that respect is only ever earned through submission to rule?

All has apparently gone well & he’ll be home later on.

We wait until some turns up

I’ve taken my daughter for a driving lesson & cooked a roast

Turns out he has to have irradiated blood & the hospital hasn’t got any.

Sent my lad back to hospital today this time with his Dad (it’s his contact weekend & for once I absolutely refused to flex). He needs a blood transfusion, poor thing. Hopefully he’ll feel so much better afterwards though.

Don't kill squid.

Worn my fabulous trolleys again today.

My kids habitually went through glass 1930s doors so I replaced them with cheap MDF filler but can’t see a plain surface without wanting to decorate it (especially when i’m given a selection of paint tester pots!) Second is WIP

I am virtually blind. It’s very sad as an artist. Even have some macular changes I’m.. keeping an eye on.

Well obviously it’s not differentiating natural changes as we age (becoming long sighted) with the absolute disability that short sightedness creates in childhood onward.

Accurate. Am sure she thinks the fox is a toy I got for her

No, Uranus has.

It’s true they have othered themselves. Yes

I expect that’s what they think I’ve done. I’m an awful stubborn vendor though.

Hmm Col, like a sharpened spear there.. I am stumped to name anyone literally but I still get what Martha is getting at. People who think it’s more impressive to seek vast personal wealth perhaps, than to experience love of fellowship or society.

It’s Wales at the coast in June.

Not by me. Love is a doing, rather than a feeling for me. Just saying it is meaningless, unless qualified. I think of loving as an expression of respecting, cherishing, valuing. Offered to people or.. things that are not people.

Affection, attachment, adoring etc are different things.

a man with a beard is touching his forehead with his hands ALT: a man with a beard is touching his forehead with his hands

Further to the Vinted haggling obsession

I advertise something for £50 on fb marketplace place.

Brenda asks if I’ll accept £45. I say no.

She says “is £50 your best price?”
“Yes Brenda, it is.”
She replies “what’s your best price?”

I reply “£50”

JAMA Pediatrics 'Research Letter' titled "Clinician and Parent Perspectives on Essential Psychosocial Care in Pediatric Cancer" by Kimberly S. Canter, Anne E. Kazak, Natalie Koskela-Staples, published Oct 6, 2025.

Clinicians and parents prioritized assessment of psychosocial needs, psychosocial support, and financial needs as essential standards for pediatric cancer care. ja.ma/4p4YvPK

there will be folk who drive no more than 20 miles a week with tanks full for months.

I know. And today I chose to use this channel. We haven’t long had access to the hospice service so I’m glad. I am utterly wiped out tonight.

Of course. I’ve been before & everyone is always kind. I tend not to share my son’s story when families are newly diagnosed because truly, 17 years of trauma is a lot for young parents to hear. I really had to offload Sunday’s tears though. Had a complementary foot massage, pure bliss!