I am not looking forward to being on Bsky the day Zack Polanski inevitably betrays us.
07.03.2026 21:28
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I am not looking forward to being on Bsky the day Zack Polanski inevitably betrays us.
Really hoping that Thomas Ligotti quote about the next great horror writer being a sadsack loser with a waning grip on reality and no money is true and refers to me.
Starting to really *notice* the psychic damage I've accrued in the last couple of years, some of it in startlingly elaborate forms.
Pronouncing 'derangement' like how you might say 'rapproachment' to lend a certain dignity to my present condition.
auspicious suggestion
Entering another *if I just got another shitty admin job I'd be able to have nice things and might be able to not go insane if I try hard enough* arc, god help me.
Once again a Bandcamp Friday in which I actually have something up on Bandcamp (it's a kind of lo-fi sludge goth)
gogai.bandcamp.com/album/mortif...
You can't just do this to a girl
This, to me, is dungeon synth www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4dV...
I can't believe I slept through pissmoon
Dreamt I tried to get back from a party in south in the advanced hours of the morning only to find my passage through central blocked by thousands of Sardaukar
I need to make a concept album immediately
Working on the book once again, buoyed up on the knowledge only that there's really very little left to derail my existence any worse than it already is.
Taking all your advice and "manifesting" a new upper molar
Update it turns out if you upload as a single track rather than an album if fucks with the metadata so here it is again gogai.bandcamp.com/album/mortif...
I'm not sure what it's called but it's fucking ancient
Album of the day - brought to you by that one bit in Hold the Dark (2018) where Alexander SkarsgΓ₯rd drops in on his pal doing coke alone to Summoning the Splendour Once Fallen evilfeast.bandcamp.com/album/winter...
Restored, reconfigured and rendered beautiful
So, mine and a buddy's attempt to start an online bookselling business never got off the ground (they were asking me to submit some intimidatingly official-looking documentation) but I got as far as designing this rather snappy logo, which you, too, can now enjoy I guess.
Ok so this version lacks some of the charm of the 2020 iteration (it no longer has the wildly inaccurate *best guess* wikipedia pages it would generate for the artist currently playing) and badly needs a customisable theme but it nonetheless feels kind of like coming home
Oh shit, Amarok came back! Maybe everything will be ok after all
John Howe was also 100% correct in his decision to depict Arwen doing a nu metal head tilt
Wistful trip to night Sainsbury's
youtu.be/-m6GN4vBFA0?...
2002 fck (I am also ill and deranged)
[Watching the extended cut of Lord of the Rings The Two Towers (2003)]: I swear to god this isn't a nostalgia thing I just need to remember what being able to imagine a future felt like for an afternoon
source: I was told this by a guy
Inventing a new, worse person archetype than Isabelle Adjani in Possession pfp woman (John Howe Arwen portrait modelled on Isabelle Adjani in Nosferatu pfp woman)
I remain in hell but I am at least writing again