jord 🥀

hello bluesky i fell off on checking this app but tw*tter is pissing me off lately lol

i so desperately want to get out of america lol like my partner and i talk about it often enough bc things are scary and i can’t make a living here

i feel like all i do is bitch about how bad everything is but how can you not?????? none of this is normal and it’s impossible for us to organize when there’s a huge political divide and it’s alarming that half this country is straight up evil

it’s very hard to be online when half the people just yap about how they don’t think certain groups of people deserve to be treated as equal fucking human beings and it’s so. draining. and i’m tired.

i’ve been spending less time on social media but especially there bc everyone has worms for brains and the website doesn’t even work bc elon is actually stupid

ik every internet platform has annoying ass people on it but twitter is crazy im not arguing with misogynists i don’t have the time or fucks to give about y’all

i’ve never felt like having a “career” suited me, and all i want to do with the remaining time i have on this earth is work in the community in any way/shape/form and i’m genuinely looking forward to seeing where things take me in terms of that

i think in a different life i’d be a successful tour photographer and living my dream. in this life i’ve been cursed to work multiple jobs and still live paycheck to paycheck. but fuck it we ball bc i am chasing my other dreams even it takes me years to accomplish

i willingly gave up my work health insurance to give myself time to go to college. i won’t do well in college without therapy. without medicaid i can’t afford my medication or therapy because i don’t make enough money. so essentially, i’m very very very fucked and very worried about everything

mentally preparing myself to receive a denial letter from medicaid considering the house budget was passed last night. this country is so fucking evil. they are literally killing people with every step they take.

i feel this so hard dude like my meds and frequent appointments are the reason i’m alive. shit is so scary.

Democracy Now ICE Agents in Colorado Go Door to Door Demanding IDs and Asking People to Turn In Their Neighbors

Masked agents knocking on doors, demanding that residents show IDs, and urging them to snitch on neighbors, while buses wait nearby to disappear people is full-fledged Nazi behavior.

trying so hard not to throw up over this i’m so fucking anxious bro

we got his dna results back and we don’t fully believe them so we ordered another brand lmfaoo. we’re convinced he’s got more hound breeds in him but he’s essentially a super mutt - 21 diff breeds 😭

he is so baby i hope he knows i’d die for him

i love my current job so much, it’s the first time i’ve ever felt fulfilled by the work i do but im in non-profit so i don’t make a lot :/

it actually hurts to see jobs i really really want pop up because i 100% don’t have the bandwidth to work full time and they’re all full time positions my heart is breaking

i’m really happy i made the decision to work less so i can focus on school but i realized i literally can’t survive like this <3

going back to work at the coffee shop after i quit 2 yrs ago bc i need to *~pay my bills*~ and 1 part time job is not helping me do that

i finally cut my hair after 5 months and suddenly life is worth living

i’m fine just in shambles over the joke that’s the american healthcare system, things will be okay though

spent the last couple days straight up wanting to kill myself and today i had a really good day with my partner and it reminded me that being alive is actually really awesome

AN ACTUAL ANGEL

just kidding my anxiety got so bad that i’m not bringing it anymore i hate my stupid brain!

whomst am i seeing at the mat kerekes/quip show later

having imposter syndrome so to cure that i’m bringing my camera to the gig tonight

Democrats saying "we can't get in, there's a single bald man blocking the door" like this is a 90s jrpg

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