Kenzie | #1 I Hate It Here Stan

Omg my town is finally getting a soup and salad place and I am so excited. Sometimes I just want some damn soup and not to have to make it.

It’s funny because I didn’t drink until my late 20s I love cinnamon whiskey (Jack Fire is my fav) and so many people trauma dump on me with their stories.

So my child has been acting like he can’t read to the point that I asked to amend his IEP out of concern. That meeting was yesterday.

Today, he’s just been reading like crazy. Ends up he can read. He just didn’t want to show me. Children are ridiculous, but also, I’m really relieved😂

I really need to embrace my Scorpio powers more often in regards to certain coworkers

Being a teacher makes me believe in astrology more than anything because WTF do you mean that mercury is now in retrograde and the planets are aligned and this week involved me saying “no the gnome can’t blow up the shop class” in a dead serious voice while emailing the SRO?

“The world is falling apart and we are at war again and your kid isn’t going to get to see how good this country could ever be ever. How are you dealing?”

Planning piercings, tattoos, and leaving screaming voicemails for my reps while researching elections and how to get more involved.

My next piercing is a hidden double helix and my piercer told me covering my ear in chainmail isn’t out of the question and I am so damn excited.

The USA is at war. I’m fighting a bullumia relapse. Imma modify my body and just cope today. Tomorrow I will fight.

New nose piercing with some jewelry in the color that I hope to be repping as a teacher next year. Mine fell out a couple months ago and I needed it back. I feel complete!

So just so everyone knows how bad my school district is…

The Teacher’s Union has majority public support because we are calling for a forensic audit on the way money is being spent and keep uncovering wasteful spending. I live in deep red Idaho and the public is siding with the union.

Bridgerton Showrunner I will fight you on sight if I ever have the misfortune of missing you because you somehow fucked up the BEST book in the series.

If you also fuck with Gareth St. Clair, ohhhhh bitch it’s over.

Bestie is getting me a new nose piercing today because we are crashing the fuck out after being lied to all week by our insane coworker and no one is going to do anything about it.

Gods I need to leave that damn school.

My students found this while doing a service project still in the original box. It still works. Staff parties are going to be LIT.

Yeah… still hate the gender swap of Michael to Michaela. They did not set up anything for this to work from the beginning of the series. If they hadn’t of made queer couples forbidden, it could work. But I feel bad for the actress involved the most.

Gregory Bridgerton is as unhinged as he should be and I am so happy.

Okay so did y’all know you ARE NOT supposed to have insanely gruesome nightmares with horror movie-esque ways to die whenever you get really anxious because apparently that’s not normal…

Who knew?

Also Brett Goldstein the man you are🥵🥵🥵

Rewatching Ted Lasso and I forgot how much I HATE Rupert. Like… fuck that man in the mouth and asshole simultaneously with jumping cactuses. Truly a great villain because of how realistic he is.

WTF is with FedEx not delivering to my apartment but leaving any size package at the base of the stairs? This is actually annoying. I paid for shipping.

As a teacher, it’s disheartening. Vote yes on every bond or levy. Get involved as a parent or community member. Reach out to the local union if there is one and volunteer. Do what you can. Teachers can only do so much.

Okay I am going to the doctor tomorrow to get back on my anxiety and depression meds. I should not have waited this long, but I failed a risk assessment with my therapist, so I am seeing the doctor and then talking the therapist again tomorrow.

Take this as your sign to get help now.

I am so tired of being tired. I have an appointment tomorrow to talk to my doctor about it and will be taking another sub day and I hate it so much, but I need to take care of my body.

So I made the decision to restart antidepressants and antianxiety meds and I am hoping it helps me carry all of this shit.

We are watching “The Lion King” for family movie night. I ruined 3 VHS tapes and 2 DVDs of this movie as a child and my mother is shocked that I don’t support that orange fucker?

YOU RAISED ME ON NOT SUPPORTING DICTATORS

If you made it this far, thank you for reading and helping me unload all of this bullshit that has been happening.

6. I need to leave my current school so incredibly badly but my heart keeps telling me that I am stuck because my anxiety keeps telling me I’m stuck and I don’t know if I’m going to end up anywhere else. I know if there’s an opening I have an offer at a really good high school, but who knows?

5. I really need another tattoo, but it is not currently in my budget. Even a cheap flash is not an option. I feel like that might be the only thing that makes me feel alive right now.

4. The president is an actual child predator and I have family member members still supporting him. I don’t want them around my kid, but I don’t know how to even start that conversation.

3. My best friend’s dad died and I’m incredibly distracted and I feel like a shitty friend because I’m dealing with all of this other shit and I haven’t been able to show up fully for her like I want to.

2. The anniversary of my middle school attempt is in 2 weeks and it’s officially been 20 years. I don’t know who I am at this. I’m proud of myself literally questioning everything.